I wish I didn't have to visit here..I'm a nurse but I have symptoms..oh no!!

ocdgirl, first of all, you need to pull yourself together and approach this sensibly.  Since you are a nurse you already know consequences of not controlling diabetes.  These are the symptoms of LADA from  www.diabetesmonitor.com: 

Characteristics of LADA

• Adult age at diagnosis (usually over 25 years of age)
• Initial presentation masquerades as non-obese type 2 diabetes (does not present as diabetic ketoacidosis)
• Initially can be controlled with meal planning with or without diabetes pills
• Insulin dependency gradually occurs, frequently within months
• Positive antibodies
• Low C-peptide levels.
• Unlikely to have a family history of type 2 diabetes.

Ask your doctor to do further tests to determine if you really have LADA or not.  Whatever the label, you have diabetes.  In the meantime, you have got to get control of your diet.  Freaking out and throwing your fate to the wind is not helping you in the least - and you know this or you wouldn't be coming here to Healingwell, right?

Read the two stickies at the top of Diabetes here so you have a handle on what you need to do.  Are you seeing a doctor for control of your stress and anxiety?  This might be one reason you're not able to focus clearly on what has to be done for your health and possibly that you're in a cycle you can't get out of.

Scary, huh? You are way over the top on worry here. You can do some simple things as some of the other members have suggested and lower the panic level a bit. You can also start taking some time for yourself to just get a grip. Work seems to be keeping you running so maybe a simple 10 minute meditation break each evening after dinner might be in order. Deep diaphragmic breathing, calm thoughts, maybe a centering prayer or picturing a waterfall or mountain lake. Then after a few days of calming write up a care plan for this patient.... YOU!

Use your knowledge to figure out what this woman needs and how you can help her meet her needs. This is what you were trained to do, so now you can do it for someone really valuable. You already know her income level and knowledge level so start from there and build a care plan that she can follow. Small steps, don't overwhelm her at first. Praise her when she checks her blood every morning. Don't scold, don't browbeat. Just encourage. She is a good person who has spent her life helping others and now she needs a little help.

Diabetes isn't the big bad wolf that we once thought it was. If you ignore it it will getcha... but you are too smart for that. Time to be good to yourself and take it one step at a time. I've been where you are, went so far as to be on insulin and actually got myself off of it by eating nothing white except cauliflower and cottage cheese. You can do this. We can help.

The stress can also elevate blood glucose levels, so try to relax and get enough sleep. Vegetables are good because they don't have much carbs. However, I personally don't count carbs that accurately anymore, but I'm type 1 with hefty doses of insulin. I pretty much know what an average meal looks like after 22 years and go with the feeling. Then inject more insulin if it was too much, eh. There are so many other things that can affect blood glucose and it's not an exact science. The averages are what count. I have a hard time laying off on the snacks though, even if they were healthy, fruits etc.

Cholesterol can have an effect on metabolism in general. It might also have some effect on how effective the existing insulin in your body acts. Also, the LDL cholesterol tends to jump up if the general blood glucose levels are too high. However, I don't know if this was true to type 2 or prediabetic states, because your a1c tests are a lot lower than mine anyways...

Try not to take the high reading as a "miserable failure". I know you can feel guilty for either high or low readings, but try to take it as a guideline and eat a little less the next time. Different foods have different absorption levels. Every once in a while my own readings are out of whack and I'm thinking "how the heck did that happen", but it happens. Probably it happened because of the fats in the food that day, or different exercise, different insulin levels or the timing in taking the injections, a sickness or an infection, or I dunno. My plan is to measure my bgl more and then get the cholesterol down via more exercise and healthy eating (darn the restaurant food). Eventually I'll be back where I was last year, more or less balanced, I hope.

well..the "results" are in. One thing I know. The glucometer I purchased is pretty darn accurate!woot!

Before I left for the full bloodwork that morning, I tested, after starving myself silly, 13 HOURS! and that was after being a "wholesome clean eating person" like an angel!

Cut back on coffee with half & half, hardly any cheese, NO meat or chicken skin, no chips or empty carbs whatsoever! I mean REALLY angelic for 3 days before hand!

Anyway, I got a reading of 94, which was the best I've done all year! I could never starve myself for 13 hours, much less cut out my coffee with half and half, so this was a FIRST!

LOL! anyway, by the time I got to the Dr's office, another hour had passed, messing around there, running around the parking lot, etc..I'm sure I buzzed off 5 points! My testing blood glucose was 88! I was happy with that, as compared to last year, at 101, fasting.

The bad news, was my A1C. which was 5.8. which is "Just over the line". I did finally show the Doc my glucometer and all the years results with the high readings and all..the 142, etc.. he was not all that impressed.. of course, the UTI's the long healing skin wounds, etc..not a great thing

..and the LDL's cholesterol (220) not too great, but with the ratios being entirely normal, and HDL being GOOD..hey..it's not all THAT bad.. He was More concerned with my lower blood pressure number being high. Over a long period of time..around upper 90's 100.. so I've been referred to a CARDIOLOGIST.

PHOOEY. I got an ekg. which was ok. (I thought it looked ok!) But he sent me for an ECHO which I will be getting on June 7th. Then, I have to get the followup visit on June 9th. Seriously!!

My C-Peptide result was fairly high. That was good news! 3.0. I guess I'm just insulin resistant. Fat. Obese, at 193 pounds. I did go crazy on memorial day and buy 4 sticky buns and a bag of Terra Chips. That's all I ate..and my glucose went so high..for me..it was 149. The highest I've ever been.

I felt so bad I thought I would die!Everything was blurry, I couldn't read my books! It was the first time I had eaten anything really SWEET/syrupy/sugary in a long long time..and the last..it was not worth it..

Anyway, my bloodwork results were better than I though, but I don't feel like they "look". I feel "sicker"..if you know what I mean?? No energy..crappy..perhaps I need to be on metformin? well..we'll see?..I'll go see the cardio and see what he has to say..

I was still puzzled by some of the other bloodwork values, high RDW's high red blood cells, low CO2, and some other weird stuff with my red blood cells as if I had too many of them being made??..hmmm..

oh well..maybe the after effects from all the infections and antibiotics..?

Doctors and other professionals have a tendency of lowering those so called upper limits for everything every once in a while. As a type 1, I would be happy if I got the A1c below 8.0 for once..