The feelings I go through...any one else?

I tend to thin a lot, and I love to write, so I wanted to share what I have had in mind this morning...

A person full of life, I used to be

Now I am a shadow of my former self

I try to hide the pain I feel

But I am only fooling myself

I try and try to be my old self

But I am now a mere shadow

And I cannot return

For I have an illness that does not retreat

No matter how badly I wish it would

A mere shadow, that is all I am now

I wish I could return the way I used to be

Tiki you have read my mind and touched my soul! Thank you for sharing,
Miriam

Not a minute goes by when I dont wish or remember what I used to be I will never adjust to this at all, im no longer the person I use to be and never will be again.            sue2z

     This is a sadistic disease, the more you give in to it the worse it gets. You have to fight back and maintain a positive attitude. I know it sounds uncaring and insensitive to say get up and get busy when someone is hurting like we do. But if you give this cursed fibro an inch it will take a mile. Don’t give in to the seduction of depression. Don’t let fibro see you sweat…..spit in its face!      Find something you like to do and do it with all your heart. I have less pain when I do and I don’t notice the pain I do have as much when I am focused on accomplishing something.      We all have the thoughts you wrote about . The trick is not allowing them to own us. I choose another reality and I won’t settle for anything less...  Please fight back my sister.  

I wrote this poem when I was in a particularly depressed, yet insightful, mood. I tend to do some of my best writing when I am in that kind of a mood. I don't know why. I always have. I will try and work on a new poem about finding a way to live with our new selves, and then I will post it. I am glad you all liked this poem. Poetry is usually my best way of expressing myself.