I haven't been around in awhile

       I haven't been around in awhile I have been busy with work and school, sick and I guess lost.  My endo was really bad for months and it seems to be ok here these past two months.  Back in December My body pain starting getting bad again and feeling like crap was still there.  I had an appointment with the Rheumy in January to refill my scripts and check in but about a week before hand my hands swelled up really bad.... again. (this is what started all of my problems to begin with).  This doctor and NP have not seen this as of course it never happens around the time that I have an appointment.  So I called to get an earlier appt and they set me up with the NP, which is who I usually see.  She couldn't believe my hands which at that point had been swollen for over a week and were starting to cool down.  She had the Doc come in and take a look and they started throwing around scarry drugs and disease (yet another time in my life).  I asked if this could be caused by FMS, and they both said no it would not cause swelling. So they sent me for blood work and an MRI of my hands.  I had the excrutiating MRI done and the blood work and headed back to the Rhuemy the next week.  I was very worked up about it all and could decide what I was more scared of something very serious being wrong wiht me or my tests coming back fine again.  I know that sounds horrible, I don't want anything to be wrong with me but it would be nice to just know i am not crazy and my body is obviously telling me there is something wrong. And of course you can guess they came back with nothing, and I continued to feel like a crazy person.  She filled my script, finally gave me percription strength ibprofen (as i have been asking for it for over a year) told me to come back in a few months and sent me on my way.  The kicker was she said "oh and we didn't see any swelling right?" which really caught me off guard as they were the ones freaking out about my hands being swollen.  So my body pain hasn't been bad just achy and my hands still continue to be the main problem.  I am just so sick and tired of feeling like crap and being tired all of the dang time.  I have successfully ruined the last three weekends, I keep getting really hot and start sweating and feel like I am going to be sick and of course I am achy and just generally do not feel well.  But there is nothing wrong with me. It is fustrating butyou can see why I have been distant.  Sorry this is so long I didn't intend it to be I just kept going.  I hope you are all well and I going to get caught up on some posts.  Thanks