So confused!!!

So um . . . this is kind of embarassing . . . but gosh, I could use some insight!!

I have been feeling better and not having a flares all of the time.  Background:  I started using my cane when walking more than just around the house or office because I discovered that when I used it, I could walk further with  less pain.  Ok . . . The nature of the university campus where I work forces me to park a 10-minute walk away on most days.  (note - this would not be 10 mins for non fibro peeps).   So after several months I feel stronger and decide to park 10 and a half minutes away!  But on that day I have a flare and the extra half a minute back to  my car is killer.  But . . . I rest and feel better again.

So today I am thinking to myself "I will start parking upstairs next week and stop using my cane and stop using the disabled parking and will not renew my temp placard."   To practice, I walk 4 blocks to Farmer's Market to check on my students who are there and 4 blocks back and do not use my cane.  Of course, now I am in a lot of pain.  So I hobble the 10 minutes (actually longer cuz of the pain) to my car.  Now my hips are burning.

I have bursitis which I am trying to strengthen myself so it goes away, but strengthening is hard when stamina is low cuz of fibro.    Hips are burning and fibro is flaring and I feel awful!!!  To top it off, I forgot my meds this morning. 

So how do I figure this out . . . I thought "I am better so I don't need to use my cane."  (y'know, I don't feel sexy with my cane . . .).  But I think my thoughts were wrong.  It should be "I feel better because I use the cane."  Or it should be, "this is fibro, who knows how I will feel from one minute to the next.  Tomorrow I will stand on my head for an hour and be on top of the world and the next day I will scratch a mosquito bite and be thrown into a flare.

I am so confused!!!

Sue

Sue, I can so relate!! Sometimes what puts me over the edge is cat poop. No kidding, it's one of the last things I do at night - go downstairs, feed the 2 cats who live there, clean their litter box, and carry up the little paper bag of poop, which is in no way even remotely full. If it feels heavy AT ALL, I put some in another bag for next time and I'm ok.

Sometimes, though, it's hard to tell what's too heavy. I find out when I get to the top of the stairs. We're talking probably the difference between 12 ounces and 14 ounces, but that difference can mean a night of relative comfort or one of nagging pain.

As Chutz said, you have a lot of company!!

I love coffee. But it hurts to lift that coffee EVERY day, the only difference is how bad it hurts. Left hand, right hand, makes no difference. I find that very sad, but I'm getting used to it as time goes by.

I guess we can see this as a good thing with fibro. Some disorders you don't get good days so when we have good days it's like a surprise gift.

 

Fibro is very strange from one day to the next and things that made me hurt yesterday may not bother me at all today or vice versa. It makes planning anything very difficult and I use to be a planner and scheduler.

 

luv and hugs

Marlee

Sue, I think the key to your confusion was you forgot your medication.  If I forget to take my medication, I will be in downright misery.  Consequently, I don't forget it very often.  I can be doing really well, forget to take it at the regular time and two to three hours later I'm limping and aching. 

 

Sherrine

statgeek, If it were me i would keep the placard. Just because you have it doesnt mean you have to use it, but if you have a really bad day you will be glad you have it.