I like my primary doctor. I really do. But Friday, he really frustrated me. I'm used to pain. Aren't we all? Friday's visit yielded a diagnosis of costochodritis. But here was what frosted my
cookies: A year ago, I developed some serious pain around my left scapula. He thought it might be coming from my neck, but the MRI showed that my discs are bulging slightly to the right, not the left, so they just shrugged it off and said "Oh, well, since all your pain is on the opposite side, there really isn't much we can do." So I live with extreme pain, and often numbness on my left side and arm, and really do very little with my left arm because it aggravates the pain when I do use it. In January, my doctor gave me some vicodin to have on hand for the pain. I am extremely conservative with my use of pain medication because I do not want it to lose it's effectiveness, and I don't really like the way it makes me feel anyways. I use it only when the pain becomes unbearable. Several times over the past 6 months, he asked me at my check ups if I needed a refill, and I always told him no, I still had plenty left.
So when I went on Friday, I asked him for a refill, since I had finally taken the last one. He says to me, " We don't like to give out vicodin for fibromyalgia pain because first you take one, then you take two, and then you don't know whether it is fibromyalgia pain or withdrawl from the medication." Hello? Was he really saying this to me? I told him, " I don't need it for the fibro pain. The fibro pain is nothing compared to the pain I have every day from whatever is wrong with my back and shoulder. Might I remind you that it has taken me 6 months to go through the 30 you gave me last time? I think it is safe to say that I am not going through any kind of medication withdrawls." To which he says " When did we last order that for you? Oh, it was January. Ok, I guess we can re-fill that for you."