I've been on and off anti-depressants since I was in the 7th grade. I don't mind taking them. I have one, but I haven't taken it in like a month because I keep forgetting to get it filled. Stupid fibro fog. Things have been so busy around here that it is really one of the last things on my mind. My depression really isn't too bad. I take 150mg of Trazodone every night to help me sleep. But, recently, even after 8 hours of a sound, drug-induced sleep, I feel like I have only taken a small nap. I think I might need a sleep study, but I am hesitant about
that. I don't like the idea of people watching me while I sleep. It creeps me out. When I take Trazodone, I am pretty much dead to the world, so I wouldn't know if someone was messing with me in my sleep or not. Not that I think professionals would do that, but still.
I feel so bad all the time that the house isn't the way I want it to be. It doesn't help that my hubby is somewhat of a slob, but since he is a full-time student at IvyTech, I feel it is my responsibility to take care of the house. It's hard a lot of the time.
And I am dealing with the Social Security people right now. I have been doing all the paperwork for the appeal, and then I just sent in the paperwork they sent me after I filed for the appeal. So far, I haven't gotten a lawyer. I want to see if I can get this done on my own. If not, I have the name and number of a great SS lawyer here in my town.
I just have so much going on. And when I am actually able to lie down and take a nap, I am unable to. It's frustrating. I almost fall asleep when I am not supposed to be sleeping and then when I CAN go to sleep, I am unable to. It's a little maddening.
When I saw my doc last month, he noticed I was in a flare without me even telling him that in so many words. He has been with me on this since the beginning, and even though I only see him once a month most of the time, he knows how I am feeling just by me explaining some symptoms and my general appearance.
I find I run a fever when I am in a lot of pain, does anyone else have that?