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Posted 1/11/2011 9:34 PM (GMT 0)
Ok, so I wonder sometimes why I can't see...That these GREAT ideas that pop into my head are NOT so great HAHA!!

So, I haven't 'officially' been diagnosed with fibromyalgia. My reg. doctor says he 'think's this is what I'm dealin with. And that if the pain pills don't work & I come back for another visit. He is going to have to refer me to someone that works with fibromyalgia.

I was thinkin that maybe I just had to much time on my hands & that I feel so cruddy just because I don't really no why....Maybe if I got myself a job, I wouldn't have time to think about it. And maybe just maybe it would help me feel better....Was talking to a lady that said she felt ill all the time and sore and never felt good. Then she went to work and she started feeling better? So, i thought maybe this would work for me. I go out and get one of the hardest jobs on a persons body LOL...I got a job working as a housekeeper in a hotel. I have been so sore and so tired every night i come home. The day after I feel sick and ill and run a fever. I don't have energy for anything. So, Im thinking is it just because its all new or is this just how its gonna be for me?Went to the chiropractor yesterday and felt better for a day. Now my shoulder blade area is hurting bad again.

I felt so sick all day yesterday after working Sunday. Today, kids were out of school for snow day. Took them sledding because I was feeling good. Now I'm back to feeling like crud again. I'm so sick of being limited. I just wanna be myself and do what I did when I was in my 20s LOL. BLAH...The tramadol is helping me quite a bit, but now I'm up to 50mgx2 at a time plus 3 motrin, and the dr prescribed me to only take 1 every 6 hours.

 

Posted 1/11/2011 10:19 PM (GMT 0)
Well, at least you gave it a try! LOL Somehow I don't think this job is the greatest thing for you right now. :)

First, find out what is going on, and get that under control. If I did what you have done this week, I would have to crawl to the bathroom!!! The snow storm itself has kept me home two days this week taking 2 Tramadol and a muscle relaxant every six hours.

Take care, and hang in there.

V
Posted 1/12/2011 2:27 AM (GMT 0)
Vannie, I'm thinking I shoulda got myself figured out for sure!Thing is, tomorrow is my last free day. Thursday, friday & Sunday work days. And I have been dreading it. Mon-Weds days off & by the time I recover it's time to go back to work :(

I don't 'have' to work, but just need something to pass the time. My children are 14 & 11..In school all day other than their norm. breaks and snow days. I struggle with the feeling of not contributing. It's all in my own head. My husband doesn't make me feel this way at all.

My husband tells me he thinks alot of my pain and ill feeling is from the weather. I'm sure it has something to do with it..But, I'm thinking alot of it is the job. I just don't want to admit it to him. UGH

I have been sooo soo tired the past 2 days. I'm dragging and just barely staying awake. Im achey and feel like I have the flu. I no I need to go back to the Dr.
Posted 1/12/2011 4:20 AM (GMT 0)
Crazy, I was exhausted and sore after doing a housekeeper's job at a Holiday Inn for 2 days - in my twenties, before fibro! If I did it now, I'd probably be in a body cast, hooked up to a tank of morphine!! There must be something easier on your body?

Debbie
Posted 1/12/2011 2:27 PM (GMT 0)
Well, now that I have myself in this mess. I don't no how to get myself out LOL. I been doing well at work & I just crash after work and my days off. I'm emotional today. My husband left for work & the tears just started pouring. I could barely wait til he left to start crying. I didn't want him to see me. I no he is a smart man, I have been in a mood since Monday, moping around...UGH. I get so tired of failing.
Posted 1/12/2011 2:34 PM (GMT 0)
goingcrazy, I wouldn't call it failing at all. That sounds like a job that just might be too physical at this stage of the game. I get very exhausted when I am just running errands all day. When I leave the house I try to bundle what needs done. My hat's off to you for trying!

Post Edited (GSDgirl) : 1/12/2011 7:42:44 AM (GMT-7)

Posted 1/12/2011 3:52 PM (GMT 0)
Im so sorry that this hasnt turned out well for you. I know that I myself could not do housekeeping at a motel and I admire you for even trying. If you can not keep this up rest assured you are not a failure, you have fibro and our bodies can only tolerate so much. I used to work as a cashier and there were times I would come home from work and wasnt sure whether I was going to be able to get out of the car because of all the pain I was in. When I did make it into the house that was about as far as it went, I had nothing left for my family. Sometimes we have to make decisions about what is more important to us and it took me too long to realize that my family deserved more from me than just a paycheck. I will be praying for you.
Gentle Hugs
Shirley
Posted 1/12/2011 4:13 PM (GMT 0)
goingcrazy, you havn't failed. It sounds as if this job just isn't the right one for you. You have one of the more physical jobs. Most of us with fibro do not handle the "back and forth" motion of sweeping, mopping, vaccuming, etc. that would be involved with your job. Not to mention that you are having to do it at a fast pace. I think that the up and down arm and shoulder motion involved with making a number of beds during the day would probably be the worst for me. A few hours of doing that, and they would probably have to carry me off the job on a stretcher! At least you have given this job a good try. As some of the others have mentioned, I would get my medical problems figured out first, and get that situation under control. You need to take care of yourself and put your health first. Then, possibly get some type of occupational testing done. I think that some community colleges or Job services offer this. I belive that this type of testing narrows down areas of interest as well as indicating the types of jobs that you would be best at. I don't know what your financial situation is, but maybe you could take some classes in order to get into a new field? In the meantime, it sounds as if you have a good, understanding, and supportive husband. It also sounds as if you contribute to your family life in many non-financial ways.
Posted 1/12/2011 6:33 PM (GMT 0)
Thanks so much to everyone!Our financial situation is not at all a problem. My husband is super understanding & very supportive. I am so thankful to have such a great guy :) Not even my children wanted me to go to work HAHA. They said NO DON'T DO IT!! My daughter has been more grumpy. But, guess 3 outta 7 of the days of the week. I have been coming home grouchy & tired & can't move off the couch. I have been forcing myself to take showers & get up to go to bed :(

I'm probably going to have to go back to the Dr. & be referred to a different Dr. He told me last visit that he was going to have to refer me to someone that worked with fibromyalgia. He is my reg. dr, but wanted me to see someone more specialized in my case.

I'm giving myself a stomach ache even thinking about calling & telling them I'm not coming back. I know they are going to want an explanation & they will argue with me & make me feel worse than I already feel.
Posted 1/13/2011 4:47 PM (GMT 0)
Don't let yourself get so worked up over this. Its not worth it. Look at it this way - will you ever see them again? Would they rather you quit now or get hurt and sue for disability? Housekeeping at a hotel is not meant for everyone and I am sure that they know that.

I agree with everyone else - you gave it a good try. But, do you want to continue at the expense of your health and the happiness of your family?
Posted 1/13/2011 6:51 PM (GMT 0)
Denita, heck no!!!Thanks so much!!!I called this morning, told them I tried my best...Has been making me sick & it's not for me...Soo, back to doing what I love most. Taking care of my fam :)

My husband, I'm so glad I have him :) He sent me a text this morning. I had tears in my eyes after I read it. He told me I never had to do anything I didn't wanna do as long as he's alive..I love him so much.

I ws stressing myself out about this, I am glad its over!
Thanks everyone, for being here to talk
Amber
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