So sore and tired....at work..

Hello,

I need to rant...?...complain? Started work at 7 am and finish at 7 pm. Had a good weekend with my youngest son and daughter but stayed with a friend and up too late Saturday. Had a couple of things to do Sunday but ended up at home by 1 pm and in bed by 3 pm. Woke for food about 8 pm and back to bed by 11.

Had to wake at 5 am for work and now (2:30) am just wiped out and sore as hell. Everything hurts - heck, my eyelashes hurt! I have percs I can take but am afraid to 'cause I may get more drowsy. This crap just makes me feel so much more depressed... I just want to go home to bed. It's snowing again (I'm in Ontario, Canada) so my drive home (100km) will be lousy. I sit at a computer all day and already my neck, shoulders, wrists and arms are aching like heck. I don't really notice the leg pain till I stand.

What pain meds have others tried for fibro? I'm on percs, 5 day, but they don't really make the grade and I don't care for the potential long term issues.

AAAAggggggghhhh........just shoot me fulla somethin to put me out a while! It makes me wonder why to bother....with anything. It's a hard trade off - stay at home on disability and endure the self-loathing self talk of uselessness or stay at work and endure the extra pain and glare of co-workers' misunderstanding and ignorance.

I just want it all to go away!! Please! Just one full day without the pain - ONE DAY!! i feel like a fool at my age complaining like this but darn, it hurts! I know people here can understand but I don't work with you folks.

Thanks for reading and understanding.

swathed in pain and anguish,
Brian

Post Edited By Moderator (getting by) : 2/7/2011 4:59:21 PM (GMT-7)

Wow Brian, Sorry you are going through so much pain right now. Those are some long hours you are putting in. Do you have to do that every time you work?

I am on disability but I do know what it is like to come home from work and barely be able to make it from the car to the house because I hurt so bad. I wasnt even putting in those long hours you are.

I also know that winter weather can cause more pain and fatigue. I live in North Dakota and winters here get very long. I am so ready for spring. Each year it gets harder to endure the cold and the snow.

My husband is also on disability due to MS and I do understand how hard it is for a man not to feel productive. I watched him go through so much depression and pain from not being able to do the job he loved anymore. He works part time as a greeter at Wal-Mart now and he hates it. It does however get him out of the house for awhile. He is a type A personality where I am way more laid back. So for me being at home isnt half as hard as it is for him.

Whatever you decide to do we do understand the pain you are feeling. No choice is the wrong choice just do what you have to for you. I will be praying for you.

Gentle Hugs
Shirley

Hi Brian,

I like the quote in your signature. It seems like the 12 hour days are disrupting your normal routine, and it takes a few days to recooperate. It might be something that you will have to accept and try to go with the flow. Learn that you will have to recooperate and you will sleep more afterwards and try to accept it and don't beat yourself up over it.

Learning to cope with fibromyalgia is truly difficult. But it sounds like you are going to be able to handle it. Sometimes the percs give you a little energy. Some people do sleep on them, and you might be one of those people. I am glad that you have them for pain.

I hope that you feel better soon. Keep posting and let us know how you are doing.

Hugs, Karen

PS I am glad that you are walking, I was going to suggest that.  It does give us energy and stamina.  Keep up the good work.

Hi Brian,

I totally feel for you....same situation, just a few less hours a day at the desk, just more in the car...

Torn between the disability stay at home and not afford to live, or suffer silently at work, and I totally agree with the glares of the ignorant at work. I finally had to start using FMLA time for all my doctor/testing appts.

Luckily, 12 times a month isn't THAT horrible...lol....but horrible enough, I know!
I hope this is day 8, since its Feb 8th!
You can make it through - be strong, and kill the ignorant with excessive kindness. I love doing that, and they hate it. <giggle>

Thanks everyone! I do find the percs normally 'perk' me up but am cautious because of the drive. Sherrine, the supplements sound like a good idea. I'm going to look into that. I've tried 600mg IB and it doesn't touch the pain - even when I taken 1200 at once.

I try to get up and walk about once an hour when I'm working 'cause it does energize me and I did talk to my manager long ago about my need to do that.

Queenie, this is day 2 of a 3 day run. I work 3 day shifts, off for a week, on for 3 nights, off for four, on 3 days, off one, on 3 nights and then start over. So the 12 days I actually work are spread over the month, not all in a row.

Karen, the 12 hour shifts have been my normal routine for the 7+ years I've been with this organization and I did it for 10 years prior to that. With child support and rental payments I cannot afford to change my career at this point - heck I'm too old anyhow! I've already given up so much of my previous life, I can't imagine not doing this job. I think it might be the final straw if I tried.

The pain abated last night but it's back again full strength - goes with the job, I reckon. Lately I've been treating myself to whatever I want to try and balance things out a bit. (and playing into my manic side...LOL!) but that's ok I figure - we deserve the little extras from time to time, even if it's not the 'Best' thing for us.

Oh Sherrine, nearly forgot....I am familiar with 'Bed Buddies' - a friend uses them - and never thought of getting them myself! Think I will on my way home tonight.

Well, thank you all again - I should get back to looking busy!

Brian