Been awhile, but I'm not so new

So it has been a long while since I've posted. Basically four-and-a-half years ago I was in a car accident that wasn't all that bad. Three weeks later I started getting headaches. Actually it was one headache that didn't go away for almost a year. I had been put on many different medications, tried many different therapies, seen many different doctors, and nothing ever really helped. The only thing that really seemed to help heal me was time. I finally sort of got better, but not fully. I went from constant pain to maybe a few times a month.

When I say pain, it actually varies. Sometimes I just have tension in my shoulders, which of course causes headaches. Other times it is hard to explain, it just feels like nerve pain I guess. Just this pain deep inside of my head.

Anyway, no one every really figured out what was wrong. I had different doctors say different things. Disk Degenerative Disorder, Arthritis, Whiplash, even Fibromyalgia. I am not so sure myself. Could it really be Fibro? I mean, don't you have to have widespread pain? My is all in my head neck and shoulders.

Anyway, so I have been back in constant pain going on at least a month, maybe more and it is getting old and depressing. I am trying to stay positive, but it can be hard sometimes. Luckily my pain is not as severe as it was back then, but today it is pretty bad. I am asking my doctor for a referral to see a rheumatologist thinking maybe they can help. Before I saw a Neurologist and a Pain Management doctor as well as Physcial Therapist. I am thinking a Rheumy could help, maybe prove or disprove the Fibro theory and hopefully give me some relief. It seems no medication out there seems to help with the pain.

Do any of you fibro sufferers only experience pain in certain areas?

Yea, the insurance company of course tried to say it had nothing to do with the car accident, but I had no headaches before the accident and nonstop pain after, so come on, really?

I am hoping I can see a rheumy and they can figure this out. I have been suffering for so long, just thankfully it hasn't been so bad. Just recently the symptoms have stepped it up for some reason.

Massage does sometimes help. I am stubborn sometimes. I tell myself I will at least get one massage a month, to try and keep my muscles loose. I work sitting down at a computer all day, so it is easy for me to build tension. But then I will end up waiting until it is too late. Then I am desperate for a massage. And I love my husband dearly, but those one - two minute massages are just not enough. But I never want a gentle massage; I always tell them to go deep as I have a lot of trigger points, so the deeper the better, even though it hurts, it does relieve the pressure, at least for a few days, sometimes weeks.

I did come up with a great analogy on how my shoulders felt yesterday and most days. You know those dare devil guys that put hooks into their bodies and hang from them? I felt like I had hooks in my shoulders and I was hanging from them all day. My shoulders felt so tense, sore, and just exhausted. It was a horrible feeling.

I did read about Fibro 101 and some of the other reads. I have seen where some people can have fibro and it just be centralized in that location. I guess I am not completely convinced that is what I have. I have my days where I am completely miserable, but I read what some of you fibro sufferers go through, and it sounds so horrible that it makes me feel bad to complain about this silly little headache, though it isn't exactly little.

I am hoping to find answers with this doctor. That is saying I get this referral. I cannot understand why I am back at nonstop pain after all this time. I am trying to keep positive because I don't want to go back into the depressive funk I went through four years ago.