My New Reality?

I've had a really bad week. A low pressure front moved in on Friday and when I woke up on Saturday my thigh muscles hurt so much I couldn't lift my feet off of the ground, I could only shufffle from the bed to the bathroom. I spent the entire weekend in bed. My kids brought me food or it would've been a fasting weekend.

I was able to return to work on Monday, but it seemed like all I did was answer the question "Are you all right? Why are you walking like that?" Of course usually when I told whichever co-worker who happened to ask that time that I had fibromyalgia I'd get the uncomfortable "Oh..." with the shifting and glazing over of the eyes.

Last night was open house at my kids' school and I thought I was doing better (no one there thought I wasn't walking normally) but when I woke up this morning my muscles were screaming again. I had to take three advil and a vicodin and go back to sleep for two hours before I could face going to work.

I was talking to one of my coworkers who also has fibro and when I asked her if I could expect to have extra pain when I go to school events she said "Yes, I can handle one thing a day and it is usually only work." Man...that really sucks.

I'm blessed that my supervisor and manager are both very supportive. But I find myself worrying about winter and being able to have enough sick days to make it through.

I'm taking tomorrow off of work to clean my house because my sister and a friend are visiting from out of state. Last weekend was supposed to be my cleaning weekend, but that didn't work out. I'm just praying that I don't overdo it and I'm in too much pain this weekend to visit.

Sounds like you are going in a flare up. I don't know if it would help you, but my fibromyalgia flare ups make it really really hard for me to walk. My doctor had me start physical therapy in a swimming pool aka pool therapy during flare ups, and it actually helps me get over the flare up. You need to keep moving, but dont over do it

I can relate to this as well. I work full time as an Office Manager and assistant. I have been out of work most of this past week. I usually dont miss work. I hate missing work. I also need to work in order to pay for the mortgage. I do not have children. I have two dogs and my husband works offshore, so he is gone often.

I used to be very anal about the house being disinfected and spotless with everything in its place. I had to change. My floors used to not show signs of having two small dogs, but now, especially during the summer months, they pretty much always have grass on them. I cannot stop the cut grass from coming in on their paws, unless I clean them each time they come back in from pottying. They are yorkies, so they are really close to the ground. I gave up bending down and cleaning their paws fairly quickly. They have small bladders and have the ability to potty 15 a day.

I also took some good advice from my mother in law. She told me that a clean house is not something that should come before pain. Kids needs and feeding myself and tending to the dogs are worth it, but not having a spotless house. My house is clean, but it is no longer spotless and Im ok with it.

My wise mother in law also told me that if I die tomorrow, nobody will say, "Its a shame that she didnt have a clean house when she died!" I love my mother in law and that statement has stuck with me tremedously.

I cannot do more than one thing in one day either. I have been needing to grocery shop for two weeks now and I hoping to go tomorrow. Wish me luck

Hope you all are feeling well.

I know how it can be. I am in school full time and in clinicals for medical laboratory technician. I am one who also used to be very anal about a very clean house and had been wicked OCDish about it. Now I find that I can only do one thing at a time and basically do a maintenance type clean (if something spills than clean it). I get so knocked out just doing my laundry (which requires me to go up and down stairs to change it, then sort it, put it away, etc.) that is my biggest chore steps and it kills me pain wise and fatigue to where I am lethargic.
I just living my days one day at a time. Good luck and ((HUGS)).