To work or not to work?

This is a hard choice to make.. I find myself in the same boat :)

Unfortunatley, financially it is a sinking ship... lol
But all we can do is take one day at a time. Perhaps try to work where the schedule can be very flexible..not that there are too many jobs like that around..
Best of luck!

Fibro suffer- Last week I went through lots of pain. I haven't had that much pain since stoping work. I realized why I don't work. I have good days and fatigue days. I don't think I could keep a job. I sometimes wish I could work. On my disability bus I ride, I see 80 years old ladies working. I am only 49. It makes me want to try.

I was in that same boat back in 2004-2005. I was working FT then down to PT In the beginning of 2005. I was missing on average two days a week. I felt that I was doing myself and my employer an injustice. I searched for another outlet to make $$$ and found that I could do when I was able to function on any given day. So I resigned from my PT position in Accounting as I was afraid that I might get let go for non-performance.
I tried selling items on ebay, well that became a wonderful little income I felt was good enough to help out holding the household together with my wonderful hubby working his hiney off. We had two kids with upcoming weddings, a Son and a Daughter. One in 2007 snd one in 2009. Therefore, I immediately filed for SSA Disability, by the mercy of our Good LORD, I was granted it January 2008. Full medical disability with Medicare. My pain levels were at times 10+ off the charts, along with long term depression, anxiety, panic attacks, PTSD, high BP, Diabetes, degenerative disc disease, OA, Heart Attack in 2009, Stint implanted, FIBROMYALGIA diagnosed in 1998. Saying all that, still on any given day I cry because I can no longer do the things like my daily household chores, play outside with the Grandchildren, go out to festivals like we had always done here in and around New Orleans where we live. :( I pushed myself till I couldn't no longer. Now I go when I can make family outings, events for family. I have to pace my energies on a daily basis. I am hardly able to keep up the house and cooking which was my life long love. Cooking for others was my love for other that I loved to do. No can do anymore. Makes me so sad.
So, do whatcha can do, as much as you can do but know what you might have to pay for it sometimes for days after. I MUST advise you to obtain a Disability Attorney from the beginning of applying for SSADisability. They do not ask for money upfront only a percentage of what they get for you. And the percentage is set by SSA in order not to overcharge you. Hope this enlightens you and helps.
Soft hugs and blessings to all!!! ♡♡♡Kathy

Fibrosufferer: Right there with you. On "good" days I can feel almost normal. Then "bad" days come, and I'm back to reality.

Myself 09: Important point! I sometimes think we need to keep "weighing" the situation occasionally, to see if anything changes (usually for the worse, unfortunately). In the meantime, we just do what we can.

I still struggle with much guilt, seeing my hubby work his backside off and never complaining. I've had a heart-to-heart talk about that and he tells me not to worry, things will be okay, but still.....

Yes, I also struggle with all of you. Trying my last ditch effort to work. I cannot put it on my employer that I am so sick and not dependable any longer. I need to make a living. I am going to try to finish college if I can find some cash and start a work at home business and hopefully can make that fly choosing my own hours. If that does not work, I am going to join you.

You do what you need to do and don't feel bad about it! We can all only do what we can do. Its that you tried over and over to do the right thing that matters.

I guess for me, I'm currently getting money from income protection insurance. Problem with that is they will access me every x number of months. My concern is, if they see me on my good days, I'm afraid that they will think I'm "faking" it, especially at the moment, because I'm having a bit more good days because I have less stress. It's really hard to explain to them and say, look, if I go into the work force, firstly I can't get the job I wanted, secondly I can't work as long as any of the employers demanded. I'm in a lose lose situation. If they insist that I go back to work, I know deep down I'll be back in my stressed out depressed state, and having more pain than what I'm currently experiencing. (Back still about 3 - 6 on a good day, and 8 on a bad day, legs calves muscle, gluts is always on 6 or higher.)

What a screwed up world we live in.