Fibro Fog: feeling helpless
Depression: feeling hopeless
For example: this weekend I tried my hardest to rest while taking care of some things around the house. Saturday was just a day of rest so I was couch bound and catching up on Parenthood (shout out!) and didn't feel any remorse in it. Sunday, as I was trying to fold my third load of laundry and feeling that stupid/slow/mush, I knew it was fog. By the time my husband came home a few hours later, I couldn't do anything to help myself get the dinner that I had pushed through to make, and crumbled in tears, totally feeling hopeless that I would never be able to feel better again, that nothing I did was good enough and that my marriage was in the toilet when I was just feeling crappy about myself. And the rest of the night was like that, absolutely anything and everything made me cry - and finding a roll of toilet paper placed ON the roller instead of through it just totally ended me. I had pushed myself past the fog into hopelessness and therefore found myself depressed.
Another key that it's depression - absolutely nothing gives you pleasure. Food, any sort of stimulation, sleep, nothing. It all feels like blah. And for me, if I am depressed, I cannot sleep. So......I got five hours last night and am at work basically doing the best I can, working again in fog. Tonight I will have to go straight to bed so that I am not depressed tomorrow, ignoring the fact that I really need to go grocery shopping. It's a fine line, but it's there.
I hope you feel better!!