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Posted 1/13/2009 1:08 AM (GMT 0)
As the day wore on today I was having a hard time fighting off the fatigue.   I am soooo tired right now, but I am still at work waiting for my DH to get off in an hour.  I started off pretty good, hard to get up as usual.  Getting up at 6:00 am is been getting harder in the past few months.  I wish I could get up and start a little later.  But my dh starts same time I do and at least 3 days out of the week he works til 5:30pm.  I have hours of 7:30 to 4:30, I sometimes work closer to 5:00pm.  I live only about 10 miles from work(I can remember the days I could ride my bike home), so at least I don't have to sit in freeway traffic the side streets are bad enough. (I live in Los Angeles).  Believe it or not we only own 1 vehicle.  We are lucky with the gig we've got, hours and all.

about 10 am I started feeling really "punk"(as my mom use to say) just ready to take a long break, a nap or something cuz everything in me feels ill.  I feel acheness/pain in some areas.  My usual 20 to 30 min break didn't cut it at 12.  Around 2 I took my offical lunch break for 40 min and my body just wanted curl up and nap good.  My back(middle) was painful trying to relax on the couch in our break room.  It was hotter than ick.?  Today the weather was in the mid to upper 80's.  Our lunch room has no insulation, so it's real hot in warm weather and real cold in cooler weather. 

Sometimes I feel I'm at my wits end.  Sales calls are getting to me, not feeling so "up" on my toes with products.  Some of my usual customers or vendors will comment I don't sound good.  I just reply "Oh, I'm o.k....maybe a little tired". 

It is almost time to go home but I definitely don't want to cook.  I try to plan the easiest dinners but I don't even feel like bothering more than half the time now.  I don't have a dishwasher in my home(rental) and I feel so guilty if I get my daughter or my husband to do them even though they had a tough or long day as well.  What a cry baby, huh?

Believe it or not I am getting mighty close to buying a cane.  It hurts bad in my hip and my cortisone injections only last about 6 weeks and I have 3 month intervals between my visits with the doc.  I could ignore it more if I could do a fentanyl patch and my ultracet everyday all day.  But I'm affraid.  I guess I need to bring that up with the doc next month.

Thanx for "listening",

Hugs,

Lori mad     Dx w/ Fibro 1/2008 

Posted 1/13/2009 1:43 AM (GMT 0)

Hi Lori

sorry you're having a bad day.  I know how it feels to just not have it in ya to get through the day.  I'm sure EVERYONE on the forum can relate to that and sends you their empathy on days like today.

Quick easy meals are always a good idea.  When I'm feeling extra good I try to make something freezible for days when I'm not feeling so sharp. 

I had to chuckle when I read the part where you mentioned the heat in the break room... as I'm freezing my tail off here in Indiana.  We'll be having blizzard conditions here for the next couple of days, with a windchill factor of 15-20 below zero.  Wish you and I could find a happy medium with the temps. huh?  Though it does seem that we fibromites can't take extremes in weather too well.

Try to take it slow, take some deep breathes, maybe some decafe tea and get some sleep.  You need it.

Warm hugs,

Patti

Posted 1/13/2009 3:12 AM (GMT 0)
hi lori,

wow-you really do have a lot on your plate. it is so hard to battle this dd and work full time and take care of a family with the cooking and cleaning and on and on. fortunately i no longer work full time, but when i did i can remember days when i would go to use the bathroom, and i'd be sitting there on the throne, so to speak, and i would look down at the carpet on the floor and think "oh my goodness, all i want to do right now is curl up right there and sleep"-i was so tired that sleeping on a bathroom floor sounded like heaven! so my heart definitely goes out to you.

i agree with neighbor patti that it sounds like you could really use a nice hot bath or tea or whatever relaxes you and some REST! (that one thing that we all need so badly, but is so hard to come by...) reading your posts, i have to wonder-is there any way you could work part time? or would that not work with your one car? maybe you could job share with someone, or work a couple of days from home? (you said you answer phones, but i've read of some people who can get calls rerouted to their house)..just some thoughts.

i am also a HUGE proponent of the quick and easy meal! i love my crock pot..'course, in the l.a. maybe crock pot cooking doesn't sound too appetizing? when it comes to dishes and other clean up, i used to have a similar problem until i sat my hubby & daughter down and said enough is enough! we now have a very workable schedule laid out where we rotate who does dishes (me, hubby, daughter, me, hubby, daughter and so on) and we've also broken down who does what chores on what day. (bathroom cleaning, vacuuming, things like that). this has helped me SO MUCH and it's made them both realize a. how much i did by myself and b. it's their house, too and they should be responsible for its upkeep just as much as i am!

i hope you're getting some good rest tonight and i really hope tomorrow goes better for you!

{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}
Posted 1/13/2009 4:43 AM (GMT 0)

Lori,

How you keep up with all you do, I don't know! You have your hands full and when you're not feeling well that just makes everything seem doubly hard. I hope you can take some time for yourself and as the others said "relax" & "rest"! Don't just try to take some time, make some time, you deserve it!

It seems funny that you are sitting there warm and here in central Illinois we have very cold temperatures and -5 to -15 below wind chills coming up for the next 3 days.

Your idea about the cane I understand. I am getting me one and I am even picking up a small stool for my shower because my balance isn't to great anymore and I usually can't stand that long without hurting. Before long, my home will look like my grandma's used to and I'm sure my mom will tease me the next time she comes to visit. lol

Hope you get to feeling better and you can slow down a bit and take care of yourself.

Hugs!!!   Margie

Posted 1/13/2009 5:21 AM (GMT 0)
Lori.. well, I do admire you for all you do.. my fatigue hasn't been giving me a break either, I gave my ferret a bath today and even from that I felt worn out!! It was ridiculous. (It is frustrating because she does squiggle a lot and try to get away because she hates the water - but, still, that shouldn't make me so darn tired!)

I do have the luxury of a dishwater in my apartment, came with it. It does help a lot I must say, instead of standing there for so long on your feet doing all those dishes...

I have heard b12 vitamins work well for energy, I was thinking about trying them out myself.

If you really feel you do need a cane, go for it! Talk to your doctor about it.

I also giggled when I saw about your temps in the upper 80's, I'm in eastern Pennsylvania where it's cold cold cold!!!! Brrr shocked And I agree with Patti, we ALL could use some happy medium temperatures!!!!

Sorry about your long, hard day.. I hope tomorrow is better for you and more energized.

___________________________________________________________________________

21 years old

Fibromyalgia, Bipolar Disorder, OCD, Irrational fears

 

Posted 1/13/2009 8:16 AM (GMT 0)
Lori, I am sending tons of gentle hugs.  I know exactly how you feel.  When I was working I got so I just couldn't get up anymore & I was going in at any hour I could pull myself together enough.  I even went in during the middle of the night.  I worked in the office of a Pharmacy/Drug Store/Hardware Store.  I loved my job but just couldn't do it anymore. 

I use my crock pot for alot of meals & my oven also.  But it is cold here so you may not be able to do that.  When it is summer here in Montana I put a Crock pot & roaster oven out on my patio.  I always have something cooking out there & sometimes cook meals for several days when I am well enough.  My husband likes to cook as well, so he has stepped up & taken over part of it.  That has been such a blessing. 

You need to let go of the guilt & ask your husband & daughter for the help you need.  If it was one of them, would you be going on with life as though nothing has changed?  Of course you wouldn't, but we women are a different breed & Fibromites seem to always be the doers of the family.  Please sit them down & talk to them now before you get to the point of no return & have a meltdown.  Beleive me, I know, I have had that melt down & it would have been better to talk it out as a family instead of waiting until I was really upset & tired.  Hugs, Denise

Posted 1/13/2009 11:21 AM (GMT 0)
know the feeling, I can see the day when most of us will be using those motorised things to get around in.  I could do with it often already and im not that old.  I feel like crap at the moment.

Posted 1/13/2009 4:02 PM (GMT 0)
Thank you all for your kind words. :-)    I am about the same this morning as yesterday and last week but that's o.k.  I know that the weather is Not helping me any.  It was in the 60's last week, today is to 86.

THANK YOU! for all the Hugs!  It felt so good this morning to read all the posts.  I do have a good relationship with my hubby and my daughter, they do help out a lot but I still feel guilty (which bugs the crap out of me).  I guess having to ask a lot of the times to get something done is difficult, I feel like a pain. sad

Well on to a better day today....Gotta to get some work done aaahhh redface It's just about 8:00.

Hugs

Lori smilewinkgrin

Posted 1/13/2009 5:07 PM (GMT 0)
Lori, I didn't get fibro til my 50s or wasn't dxd til my 50s. I don't know how you and others on here work a full time job and take care of a family. I felt like I needed to rest after reading your post. smilewinkgrin Fatigue has always been my biggest problem, it all started with fatigue. Besides headache it's a low pain day for me so far but I still don't have any energy. I get sooo frustrated with it. So to me your doing a lot for someone with fibro.

 

Is there a co worker that you could get a ride with so you don't have to go to work so early and stay late due to you DH's hours???

 

Yes, I found the comment about the heat funny too since it is freezing here but I know I can't take the heat any more than the cold.

 

luv and hugs

Marlee

Posted 1/13/2009 5:31 PM (GMT 0)
Dear Lori,
I can very much relate, working in an office and feeling so very, very tired. I was diagnosed 20 years ago, in my 30s at the time and working fulltime in an office and I remember going into the bathroom, onto a stall and actually putting my head against the metal divider in the stall and taking a nap! I just had to do that because I was falling asleep at my desk! It was awful! I really do feel for you.

I have, over the years, done a lot of research, mainly reading, trying to find ways to boost my energy. I have found D-ribose to be helpful. You might want to Google it and do some reading on it and see if it is right for you. Believe me, it doesn't wipe out the fatigue, but it does help. I also drink tea, caffeinated, in the morning, and sometimes a bottle of Fuze, which helps a bit. If I were you, I would take that 40 minute break and find a place to nap...it is probably the best thing you can do for yourself.

I just wanted you to know I really understand what you are going through. Thankfully, for the past 10 years or so, I have been working from my house, which as been such a Godsend. If needed, I can hop into bed, even if it's just 15 minutes for a little catnap, just to help. Any way you can work it out to work at home?

I wish you well,
Miriam
Posted 1/13/2009 9:50 PM (GMT 0)
Hi Lori,

I can appreciate your plight. I too have not been able to work since th eend of September. I love my work, and to give it up is very sad to me.

Hang in there, hopefully you will be guided to decisions that are good for you.

-Julie
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