Vitamins and my crazy ramblings I need support

Hi LeeAnn,

First of all, don't take any extra money to the store anymore. That will stop you from buying the tickets. You are very lucky to have won what you did, I wish I could win like that. I won 25.00 the other day and that was a big deal to me. I can see buying a couple here and there, but if you spent as much as you said that you did, that is an awful lot. But don't beat yourself up over it, that will just make you anxious and make your fibro worse. Just stop buying them all of the time.

I smoke too. I know that it is an awful habit. I am always trying to cut back or stop. All I can say there is never quit quiting. Just keep trying. But don't stress over that either, it will only make you smoke more and that in turn will make the fibro worse once again.

Try to be conscious of what you are doing in both cases. When you have a cigarette, sit down and smoke it. Don't do anything else. No talking on the phone, no computer. Just you and the cigarette. Eventually you will find yourself putting it out and smoking less. But always when you smoke, just smoke. And instead of saying you want to quit, say that you want to get healthy. That takes the mental pressure off of it.

I am here to support you. I think that you are being too hard on yourself. Like I say, be aware of what you are doing. Think twice before buying the tickets. The odds of winning aren't all that good. You are lucky that you won what you did. The lottery doesn't have that good of a pay off. You just got really lucky. I do that at the casino. I will win, then I figure that everytime I go back, I am going to win again. Not...

Best wishes for a painfree day

Hugs, Karen

Aww.. Lee Ann, 

I'm with Karen & Marlee.  I'm a smoker too and I'd love to quit, I try all the time and I can't ever get past a week.  I've tried pills, natural supplements, a thing-a-hoo-ha in my ear, you name it, I've tried it.  After a week I go nut-zo.  I wind up having a major anxiety attack and everyone in my life shoves a cigarette in my mouth.  Karen's advice on thinking about and focusing on the act of smoking is a good one.

I also think its a good idea just to leave the debit/credit card at home, just bring cash you can spend when you go shopping.  In this economy we all have to be extremely careful.  I can see how seducing gambling and/or winning the lottery can be.  I won $1100.00 once playing roulette,  I could have sat there and kept playing forever if my ex husband hadn't come along and dragged me out of there.  Last week I went to a Casino with my mom & sister and blew $150.00 that I don't have, but that's the first time I've been in a Casino in about 5 years.  I play the lottery now and then, but I don't think I spend more than $50.00 a year on tickets.

Just wanted to let you know that I'm here for ya when you need support.  Don't beat your self up too bad, just try to be aware of your feelings right now when you think about the changes you want to make in your life and hopefully you can be on the road to recovery.

Warm hugs,

Rich... that wouldn't surprise me in the least.  Let me know what you find out at your next appt., this kinda stuff really interests me.

Take care,

Dear LeeAnn, I am really hoping this reply helps.  One is I use to work at a store in customer service and I would sell the Lottery tickets in the year I worked there I only saw one big winner, more of the smaller winners like a dollar or 5.  We sometimes put our hope in things that we sometimes think will fix our lives just like that.  It dosen't.  I would suggest that you pray that you can talk to your husband about what happened with the Lottery tickets.  When you have guilt or anxious that he will find out it will make you sick and then you turn around and just do it again.  I know from experience.  He is your partner in life and we need to be open and admit when we've gone astray.  The only time I would suggest otherwise is if you would be in domestic violence situation.  With him knowing you would probably not spend the money again.  I know from experience.  Smoking no comment.  I smoke.  Vitamins, never heard of gaining weight on vitamins inless its the protein drinks.  I take lots of vitamins and excersice everyday.  It is very hard to do it, but if I don't I notice a big difference in my mental attitude.  And that is the main reason now that I excersice.  I was were you are now.  You can do this, there is hope and its hard work, but once you've accept where you are, it helps you get to where you want to go.  Lots of prayers and love in him who gives you strength. Denise (Baloo)

I want to thank all of you for you support. I tried to tell my hubby last night and couldnt I went to the store this morning and bought 100.00 in lottery 10 at a time and lost it all. I came home and sent my husband an email and told him what was going on. he immediatley called me He was not angry he was not yelling he said honey I love you and we will work throught this togather.Iam glad you told me and we will talk about this when he gets home See I have always been very active and have never liked being alone the kids are in school all day. I work alone cleaning houses. I would stop at the local general store and buy a $2 ticket then it became $5 and now up to $100 I could chat with the ladies for a few minutes it was my little time to the outside world then i would think I have to win back what I lost. then If i could win big and not work things would be easier. Let me just buy 1 more 1more then 1 more I cant stop. It is really odd because when we have gone to the casinos I have never really spent more than I had planned. If I took 50 that was it So that is why I did not realize the lottery thing at first. I use to take effexor then weaned off I really think I need to talk to my Dr about taking something again.I do have ativan that I can take and actually took one about an hour ago just to relax. but now I cant drive any where. which is probally a good thing.
Marlee how is the amitriptyline any side effects I tend to get a really dry mouth.how much do you take and also the celexa any side effects i took the relese ones then they ttook them off the market.
LeeAnn

I'm so glad you told him LeeAnn, you will work this out together.

 

Amitriptyline does cause dry mouth and it does cause sweet cravings for me, I've been on 100 mg for 11 yrs. Some can't handle it cause it makes them so sleepy but I didn't have that side effect. I have been on and off of it since my 20s and can't even remember my first reactions to it. When I started the celexa I couldn't even tell I was taking it. I'm suppose to be trying wellbutrin too but with all that has been going on with GD it's not a good time to start another med. My GP would rather I go to psych for my depression and anxiety meds, they obviously know more about them, but I had a bad experience with the last one I went to with over medicating and not understanding my med phobia. He had me on 6 mg of xanax a day for one thing. I now take 2 1/2 mg a day and 1 1/2 of that is to sleep.

 

I did try cutting down on the ami last spring slowly and had a two week flare out of hades. I had never had that kind of pain before and have not had it since I went back up to the 100.

 

Everyone reacts differently to meds. I think it was effexor that made me feel like I was getting up every morning and taking a couple of sleeping pills. It is all trial and error.

 

I do think you need to make an app with your doc and let him know what is going on with you. You could go in and buy a cup of coffee and stand there and drink it while you chat. Ken has gone back to work finally and I spend a lot of time alone and I can talk to anyone so I do go out sometimes to just chit chat with people. Walking Krissy puts me in more contact with my neighbors although most of them work during the day.

 

luv and hugs

Marlee