when i was 12 years old ., my father was an alcoholic , my mother said that she'll be back home the next morning to see her father at the countryside and just me and my younger brother left with my father. the evening came and me and my younger brother went to bed and sleep , in the middle of the night i was awaken and i foung that my father and i ask him what is he doing he told me to back to sleep which i cant ijust lay down confused, the morning came and mother arrived i told her about
it and she just told me he wouldnt do such thing, from then on i remain quiet , angry, became stubborn, i always come home late from school , stayed with my friends or at the park by the trees, my grades are failing and my mother invited twice at the school because im so talkative and i dont do my homeworks , cut classes , and more. my mother said that i was a pain in a heck and told me if she only knew i grew up like this she should press my nosr when i am still a baby. i graduate from high school and went to college just to hang around with friends and to step out of the house , i told my mom that id rather stayed with my aunt for college and she agreed. then i met someone and he really cares so i eloped and satayed with him, my mother found out and she go through my diary and found out where we lived so she take me back home, my elder brother slap me my younger brother just looking and comfort me afterwards. after college i went to work in different place and so with my boyfriend and we get married privately an weve been together for 39 years now. my husband know what happened to me when i was young . i felt better when i told him about
it. my mother passed away , but we had heart to heart talk telling her she ignore me , she apologised and ask me to forgive my father for what he did to me , on my moms dying bed i said its difficult but i will in my mind against it. now still i am suffering still haunts me if i thought my father still living out there and living with another woman at 22 years old my father is 70. i talk to him once when i found out this young girl.and thats it i never talk to him again its been five years now since my mother died. i am going to see a psychiatrist again but i hesitate to mention this i know this add to my physical problem. psychiatrist will just give you an advice for sure and more medication. thank you for reading my story i am whining right now , heartbroken and confused.......................................
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