Hello Everyone!!!
Sorry, I cant seem to sleep tonight, my right hand is killing me. I have a bad cramp in the middle on my hand, I just stuck on a lidocaine patch, and thinking of getting some Ibprofen, but I'm too lazy to get up and go get it. Anyways, I got a jury summons a few weeks ago thats due back by April 6th, and I dont wanna do it. It says I must have a doctor's note sent back with it to get out (or a criminal history which I dont have), and it takes a month or longer to get in with a doctor where I'm forced to go to. My insurance forces me to use this low income clinic, that I swear is clinic for docors who got in trouble for something and are under probabtion and doing community service or something, they're so aweful there. The one doctor that I loved there left a few years ago to open his own office (and doesnt take my insurance of course), he was one fo the 2 internists there, but since he's been gone, I've had some bad luck with the other doctors there. There was also this one Nurse Practioner there that I liked but everytime I ask for her, they say she's out, but they wont tell me if she's gone for good or anything, and this has been going on for a year, so I'm pretty sure she's gone for good. They have like 15 doctors there (actually only 2 are MDs, the rest are PAs and NPs). And the other ones I have seen are really nasty towards me, especially if I'm complaining of pain, or they see I'm taking a narcotic. I get all my meds from my neorologist and a doctor that specilaizes in the Suboxone I take, but thats all he does, he doesnt take care of other problems, plus he's and hour and half away. So I dont know what else to do, please give me some good ideas I could do to get out of this. Since I dont work I cant use that as an excuse, they wont even let me use my kids as an excuse, especailly since they're in school. And if your wondering why I cant just do it and quit whinning is because I have a severe anxiety of things like this, I always break down crying in front of them, and then cry even more cause I cried and embarrassed myself. This is one of the major reasons why I'm on disability, I would cry just looking for a job. They say its a personality disorder, I have severe shyness and a fear of people who are of higher authority, like cops, doctors, and especially Judges, which is weird considering my father was a cop for 23 years. Also I'm pretty sure the chairs I'll be forced to sit on wont be very comfortable, and that plus my stress will throw me into a flare, a really bad one, I can feel one starting from just stressing over this. Now if it wasnt for all these health issues, I would do it, I'm not advoiding it cause I'm lazy or anything, I just physically and emotionally cant do it. PLUS, me taking narcotics daily, wouldnt they consider that since it can "impair one's judgement", do you guys think thats a good enough excuse?? Oh please help me, if not, then maybe since I have about a week left I can commit a felony lol, right, that would defiently put me in front of a judge, and I dont think I could handle myself ever being put in jail, I have never been to one and dont want to start, which is why I have to fill out this summons paper or I will be in jail. I know they dont always choose you to do the jury, but I cant even stand trying. Well thank you for listening to me Rant.
-hellokitty