newbie/ It must be something else!

Hi, I am new here and my story starts 2 years ago when I fell down some steps. I was holding my 1 year old at the time and when I fell I just wrapped my arms around him and hoped for the best while falling down 12 steps. My son was ok but I took a beating and was taken to the ER, nothing has been right since then.

I was diagnosed last year with Fibro and said "No I don't have it....something else must be wrong" I have a high pain tolerance and so this can't be me. But nothing seems right. I have every symptom listed plus more. I can't stand severe heat or cold. Some days I can't think straight and even slur my words due to jaw pain. My muscles spasm..like a charlie horse...the one's in my rib cage usually knock me to the floor. The constant pain is driving me nuts. I feel so weak and this really bothers me because I used to be a weight lifter in my twenties. I was so fit and musculer back then. Now I am fat and can't hardly walk or even pick up my children. I cry myself to sleep over that one and over the lack of park outings for the kids.

My skin has started to darken in the creases and my doc says it is cause I am obese. ( I am only 40 pounds overweight but apperently that is enough). My joints ache all the time but my ANA has never been positive. My teeth are falling out. And I have a serious vit D defiency. I had to give up my dream as a nurse because I can't move the patients.(this isn't to bad I am going back to school for my second career choice, I hope anyway). I had a severe case of an SVT and my heart had to be flat lined to get it back to regular beats. I have anxiety and stress which is made worse since my husband was laid off from work and can find nothing. I am about to lose our house and just about everything else. My husband loves to blame me and say ..."I can't work ..you can't even take care of our 4 or 5 year olds ..cause you can't pick them up or take them places" Oh how this bothers me. He also likes to tell my that If I could handle pain I wouldn't have this problem

My doc told me that I need to be able to handle pain better and that it is all caused by depression and stress. He told me to see a psychiatrist for my depression and get rid of my stress and I would be pain free. He refuses to give me any medication except anti depressants. I asked him about disablity and he told me noone gets on disabilty due to fibro because it doesn't warrent it...only sick people get on disability.

My husband can't stand me..my doc thinks I am crazy..my kids want their mom..I want my life back! My world is caving and yet I still can't say out loud..."I have fibromalgia" . I think it must be something else... this is actually the first day that I have even believed enough to even look at a fibro board. That is because I rode my bike across my driveway yesterday and now my calves are hurting so bad..I literally can't walk up steps. It has to be something else...I think

My hugs go out to. FIND A NEW DR

You have lots of fires going right now and all you can do is try to put out one at a time. I agree with the other posters, find a new doctor. Get a proper diagnosis. Once you do and accept it, you can begin to take care of yourself accordingly. In the meantime, do what you can do: eat well, try to get good rest and exercise, even if it's just napping with and out walking with your children - then you will feel like you're being a good mom, too (even though I'm sure you already are). "One day at a time" - overused saying, maybe, but it's true and it works.

Welcome Veelynn!

Sorry to hear your having a hard time with your husband and yourself. Try a new doc that understands FM. When you call to make an appt. ask them if he treats anyone else with it. Have you checked out the National Fibromyalgia Association website fmaware.com? They have a list of docs you can call on, hopefully in your area.

I really understand the guilt we feel when we can not do what we use too. Its like mourning a death of our previous life, but we are born anew with a new and improved outlook on what life can bring us now. Your kids LOVE you, no matter if you can't run around in the grass with them, as long as you are there.

Read, read and read as much as you can on FM and share it with your 'next' doc. It also wouldn't be bad to share some info about fm to your family too. Maybe your husband is scared a little right now. It's always tough to see someone you love hurt so much and don't know what to do for them.

Take some hot showers or baths, they can help relax you. Heating pads are great too!

Hugs,