Sad Today

As well as very anxious. Four years ago, hubby and I moved to this town for his job. I worked for a non-profit for the first three of those years, but they were downsizing and I decided to go elsewhere last November before I was eliminated, as it really looked like that was going to happen. Since then, I've had three jobs. I've left each one because various fibro issues have made these particular jobs too stressful and have made me literally sick. Today is my first day in a very long time that I don't have a job. And at 55, I don't know if I will find another one. I have good office skills, but just cannot tolerate full time hours or a host of other office issues that cause physical stress. And I'm very sad. I feel utterly useless right now. My hubby is understanding and supportive, but I do feel like others don't understand. I can't just "tough it out" anymore. I did that years ago, going through a divorce and really having no choice about working. I did what I needed to to raise my kids, despite the pain.

If I lived back in my hometown, I would be able to help my daughter with her children, but we cannot go back until hubby retires in about ten years.

So, I'm sad, feeling very alone and wishing something would change. Does anyone have any cheese to go with this whine?

How about volunteering at a hospital or nursing home to feel useful??? If you like animals most shelters can always use help, may not be too pleasant. I haven't had a full time job in a long time, I use to help hubby out with business but don't do much of that anymore. But I never run out of things to do, can't keep up with what needs to be done.

 

luv and hugs

Marlee

Thanks, folks.

lost in philly, obviously you know, too, what it's like to move far from family and friends. I feel like we had little choice, since hubby's job is very specialized; we had to go where the job was. My grandbabies are too little to stay so far from home. I'm in midstate PA. One is in CA and one is in western PA. Both are only about a year old and DD1 is pregnant with her second. It will be a while before they will be able to come and stay alone. I do visit there, but it's extremely close quarters. They are going to be building a house, so maybe in a year or so it will be easier (her hubby is building it himself in his spare time - hah!) I will be traveling to CA to visit DD2 in July, so that should be good.

Marlee2 - I am volunteering at several places. I have to get trained first for some of them. Also, I'm meeting tomorrow with an adoption counselor for retired greyhounds. I am hoping to foster one if my dog will "let" me - she can be very aggressive with other dogs. That should keep me busy. They come from the racetrack, having never been in homes before, and need to learn everything about living in a home.

I'm applying for a part time position as a church secretary. I've done that several times, so I really should be a viable candidate. Maybe that will work out. It's only 16 hours, which is perfect for me.

noklu - I do live in a gorgeous area - a valley between two mountains. And I enjoy it tremendously. I am just used to feeling "needed", a cog in the wheel of society; I want to feel that way again.

hello sad, never been on one of these sites so please be patient. im so sorry youre feeling sad......i can certainly relate. i have been diagnosed for a little over a year..but have probably had it for 2 to 3 yrs. i know that some days it seems impossible to pick yourself up.when i haave those days i try tothink about all the other people in the world who have enormous problems with their health. or kids, or a place to live, or food to eat...etc. sometimes i can get thru my sadness by just being grateful for what and who i do have in my life. this works sometimes.....other times i just cnt seem to get over my feeling of not being very "useful" to others......in other words... i just might "wallow" a time, cry, and isolate myself. we all know we shouldnt do this but it does seem impossible at times. take solace to know that somewhere else in this world is ...me..... and i DO know how you feel, and even tho i dont know you.... i care that you feel so sad and i will say a prayer for you. we need to help each other thru these times...and on another day we will find something to smile or laugh about. it will get better.