fibromyinyourhead

Once again i have been told my anxiety and depression are the root of all my problems.

Although i have yet to find evidence to suggest anxiety and depression can erode your spine. I was having counselling and she said it's just pent up anger from a violent childhood that has me the way i am.......

I just don't know where to turn, i'm trying so hard to help myself but when i go out and get some help it blows up in my face.

I know there are many professionals out there, but i seem to be only able to tap into the ones that don't believe in it.

After 2 years of trying to concieve, we've thrown our hat at that as well as i was put on hormone treatment without any monitoring and just ended up with ovarian cysts. Now, after consulting with a homeopath, (who says the cysts are my minds way of making sure i don't concieve) she says i',m in denial and it sounds like i don't even want children.

I'm so confused and dissillusioned, and questioning myself all the time, am i actually stuck in such a vicius circle of thoughts thst i am actually in fact making myself sick and i can't see it.

I feel like i'm losing touch with reality, maybe it's all in my head and i'm really nuts....i feel like i;m losing it....i'm whacked out on pain meds and trying to work as much as i can.

It just feels like a losing battle at the moment.

My fog is terrible and i have acid reflux back that had subsided for over 2 years.

Do i just forget about any help and curl up in a ball away from society, am i actually bringing this on myself.

Has anyone a stop button for this ride.....i've had enough and would like to get off now, seriously, meltdown is imminent.

thanks.

boo

Boo, I feel so badly that you are feeling so badly. I didn't think you meant 'it is all in your head'. Sometimes we just need ppl to realize what is really going on in our lives, our bodies, and they just seem to blow us off like they know it all - and they don't have a clue. Some drs are so good, and some drs, you just want to scream.

I will keep you in my prayers (if you don't mind). I am also sending you my best wishes for real answers and help from your drs.

God bless.  Alice.

finally got tired of and went herbal. On my last and only visit this year he wanted to put me on lyrica for the

fibro and wanted to test me for depression.  Honey, I'm not depressed, just in pain.  Done a lot better with

the herbal route.

If what Tyno says is right, I may not be having the "fog" as I take HGH. It's a hemopathic with HGH and protease.

Please, please find a good doctor.  Here is a site that just might help you. 

http://fmscommunity.org/findingadoctor.htm

This isn't all in  your head.  You know, I had a cyst when I was pregnant that was ten inches in diameter and weighed four pounds and I needed surgery to remove it, along with my fallopian tube and ovary, when I was five months pregnant.  With the thinking your doctor goes by, I guess I really didn't want that child and my mind was trying to kill it.  That's completely nuts! 

Don't put up with that nonsense.  You are throwing your money away going to people like this.  You are their boss!  If you owned a company and had lousy workers, you would get rid of them and get new workers.  If they didn't work out, you'd fire them, too.  Your health if far more important than a job so get rid of these people.  You are not a mental case.  You are a person with an extremely painful illnesses and you need help so you can function and live your life to the fullest.

Sherrine

Boo, you sound sooo much better today. I am so glad. How wonderful that the woman came into your work today. A local support group and info on some 'good' drs, EXCELLLENT!! Sometimes our 'angels' don't have visible wings.

I wish they had a support group around here, there was supposed to be one at our local hospital. I had called the # that I saw in our newspaper, the lady at the hospital never heard of it. She checked all their listings, nothing. I looked into this a couple of yrs ago, that was when we just got our computer. I finally tried to find something on the internet. Luckily, I found this site. What a blessing!

I hope this is a new beginning for you.

God bless.   Alice.

Forget the Psych stuff for now. You don't need to re-live your past. One day I wrote it down, went to the church and gave away my past. I don't need the extra baggage. You don't either esp. if your trying to get pregnant. Cysts are normal. It's not a creation of your mind. It's just a cysts that can be taken out.

If it's true that you can't conceive look into getting a surrogate, adoption, legal guardianship, foster children. There are so many children out there waiting for homes. Maybe you can save one of them and give them a better life.