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Posted 5/30/2011 11:14 PM (GMT 0)
I know the title's weird, but that's kind of how I'm feeling right now. We closed on the house on Thursday and this evening is the very first time I've had to just sit and do nothing since that morning. It's literally been get up at 6 or 7 (today was 5:30) and be up and going until 11 pm or later. The new house is entirely unpacked, pictures are hung and everything's fixed/cleaned/organized that needs to be. We had a birthday party for my older son this afternoon. I'm now sitting outside with my feet up watching the kids play in the sprinkler.

I am so very lucky my fibro wasn't too much of an issue over the last 5 days. I've been in major pain in the evenings and haven't been good about remembering to keep on top of the pain meds. Thursday evening, after spending the whole day painting and scrubbing, I was in so much pain that no position was comfortable, the pain was keeping me awake and I just wanted to cry. Today my legs and hands are really swollen, partly due to the heat I think. I also got a piece of glass stuck in my foot this afternoon and the spot really hurts. I'm really really afraid that I'm going to wake up tomorrow in a flare. I'm going to be off of work for a while starting next Monday for surgery and I'm determined to work this whole week to minimize the financial aspect of the time off. I know that being tense about it can make things worse, especially when we now have an entire life upheaval to adjust to. The kids are now out of school, wife started a different shift today and getting used to the differences in getting around town etc. How do I keep myself from worrying so much about it? My philosophy all along has been "it'll work out if it's meant to", which it did in every instance, but I can't help but worry.
Posted 5/31/2011 12:14 AM (GMT 0)
Try to rest your mind and take one day at a time. That is the best that you can do. Anxiety is trying to creep up on you, I can tell. Do you do any type of meditation or breathing exercises? Because they really help. Also a nice walk can clear the mind. Take these things into consideration. The future will work itself out. Do you ever visit the anxiety forum? They could probably help you with some exercises that you could do to keep it down to a minimum.

Best wishes,

I hope that you feel better soon.

Hugs, Karen
Posted 5/31/2011 12:16 AM (GMT 0)
It sounds to me like you've been managing incredibly well, under the circumstances. Some aprehension is only natural with all that! I'd say just remember to breathe evenly, try to keep your muscles relaxed as much as possible, and follow your motto!

What kind of surgery are you having? You probably said earlier, but I've been hit or miss with reading posts lately.

Debbie
Posted 6/1/2011 3:40 AM (GMT 0)
Thanks for the words of support! Getting by, it really could be anxiety. I may have an optimistic motto, but my wife made the comment on the morning of closing while I was ruminating on "worst case scenario" for the day's events that I tend to hold up really well until the 11th hour and then turn into a huge pessimist. Anyway, I had more pain today and lots of fatigue but luckily nothing approaching a flare. It's going to be a trying rest of the week, though. Just when I thought I could relax, today I made daily to-do lists of things that need to be accomplished before surgery on Monday. Four lists, plus two more for next week before the kids' party that can't be done this week that are for others to do. *sigh* Sometimes I think I must have more than a few screws loose.

Acheybody-I'm having a ganglion cyst removed from my wrist and a hysterectomy. I'm really looking forward to it because it'll be removing two large sources of non-fibro pain from my life. I really need it for sanity's sake. Apprehension, yes, and I'm going to work on keeping the muscles loose and breathing going. I have to keep thinking optimistically or I feel like I'll totally crumble under all of this.
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