So so tired....

Hi everyone,

I don't think i have ever been as tired as i feel today....

It has been a couple of very hectic and stressfull days and it has totally gotten the better of me.

My mother is in hospital after suffering a heart attack on sunday, this has schocked our entire family, especially since we have absolutely no history of heart disease in the family, none of us even saw it coming. All in all the doctors say that her heart isn't in that bad shape, she had just one clotted artery, but even so, it still worries me tremendously, doc says that if she changes her lifestyle now she should still live a long and happy life but that her heart gave her a "warning shot" sorta speak...

All this hs been constantly playing around in my mind and it has been grinding away at me. On top of that i'm moving house at the end of the month so i am constantly packing stuff away, dragging heavy boxes around, and making all sorts of other arrangments add my full time job on top of that and what to we get? Right! A very, very exhasuted me :(

Last few nights i could hardly get any sleep, ether i lie awake worrieng about mum and a whole array of other things and if i do get to sleep i wake up up to 4-5 ,times a night.

Today i gave up at 5 AM (whilest i ussualy sleep till between 6.30 and 7) and pretty much sat in my livng room staring blankly at repeat news shows.

Right now i am not looking forward to the rest of the week...

One good thing: I have three weeks off work in august so i can get some well needed rest then. In the meantime; i'll live to fight another day.

Thanks for letting me air here, and please, spare a prayer for my Mum if u can.

Fiona

 

Fiona, I'm sorry to hear about your mother...hope she will have a great recovery and take the steps needed to get healthy.

Try if you can to take time for yourself to unwind each day, getting rid of some stress by taking a short walk or even relaxing in a tub might help. Deep breathing helps calm me down. Smell the roses, blow out the candles...thats how it's done.

I wish I could help you also...packing is a chore. Remember to pace yourself and take those breaks when needed.

Wishing you the best and that you get some much needed rest.

Hugs, Robin

Wow, that is a lot of stress to absorb. I hope things slow down for you. At night when my head is just swimming in thoughts I will turn off the tv and listen to some soft music. Take some deep breathes and turn down the lights. It really calms me down.

Thanks for all your kind words and prayers. It sure means a lot to me and i'm sure to mum.
I received news that she would be release from hospital before the end of the week and that she is making very good progress and will be back to her old selmf in no time, i just hope that she now takes the advice of the doctors and takes it slow and makes some adjustments to her life style.
You know what other thing really scared me about this episode?
My mum told me she had been walking around with some degree of chest pain for at least two weeks prior to the heart attack, and some of you may have guessed this allready, but all the while she thought it was a Fibro flare up spiced with a bit of heartburn... That scares the living daylight out of me, confusing fibro pains with heart pains, i wonder what other serious conditions we might confuse with our many other symptoms?

Its so nice of you guys offering the help even from thousands of mliles away! The packing is really becoming a drag now, but i'll get trough it :)
I'm lucky to have lots of help with the actual move, lot's of strong men to lug heavy furniture and move boxes arund tll i'm satisfied lol.
I jst hope the weather changes now, cause it has been cold and dreary here (especially for this time of year) and it aint helping me!

I hope things get better soon :)

Again thanks you guys, you're amazing!

Fiona

Thoughts and prayers going out to you, your mom and your family! :)