Help... it just seems so empty

I've never posted in a health forum like this before, and I'll be honest I've no idea what I'm looking for. Help? Support? All of the above? You know what i mean... I'm wishing that one of you will send me a link to a free treatment that cures this hell. but you won't. and if you did? I wouldn't believe it.. i've been fooled to many times before.

Im sitting here dripping with sweat and confused. my head hurts and my eyes are blurry. I'm exhausted, but wide awake, and i hurt too much. It's fine though, i'll just pop more pills. they don't help me so much.. but they make everyone else feel better, as it means "I'm getting better." It doesn't though.

Most of my family "understand" as they too feel like this sometimes... have i tried getting an early night? My doctor looks at me as if to say "you again?" and my pharmacist has begun literally throwing the bag across the counter as if to say.. druggie. Maybe thats what i am? do any of you begin to believe that? I'm putting far too much pressure, financially and emotionally on my partner.. but i can't help it! I can't! no matter what all those (insert swear word here)'s say.. i can't help being like this.

I've been off sick for about 3 months.. and I'm going back to work next week.. that added stress is certainly helping. I went to buy chocolate hoping it'd make me feel better.. but i just feel fatter, with all the added weight the medications give me. Everyone is so excited that i'm better enough to work.. I'm not - i just don't feel like i can continue not doing anything. Constantly assessing myself and being disappointed at what I've turned out as. My friends are graduating and working cool jobs, and I'm still struggling as a part time shop assistant.

I've put in a benefits claim.. and thats just one huge long case of "convince us" your sick.. and I'm really starting to wonder if i really could be mad. I know how much pain I'm in.. but maybe i imagine it?
And why the hell should i have to worry about making other people less worried about me? But i do... I don't say I'm in huge amounts of pain, but yesterday was worse. thats what i feel inside - but i say, that I'm much better than yesterday. Please someone out there help me.... you feel like this too? Right?

im 22 - please don't tell me its going to be like this forever?

Also, Fibrowhat,
You are not crazy or imagining things. That is what Fibromyalgia feels like. I know I get like that too much and yet am going to school. I know how you feel.

Hi, Fibrowhat, and welcome!  I'm glad you found us and gave us a try.  We have wonderful members that love to help one another and, as a bonus, really do care about each other, too.  I think you will like it here.

 

We know all about the pain and most have depression because of it.  We went from healthy to chronic pain in a very short time and that's hard.  It only took me 45 minutes from being pain-free to having chronic pain. 

 

You are in shock.  You are grieving.  We do need to do that because it is important that we accept this illness, face it head on, and live our lives.  I've had fibro for 22 years and I've had a full and enjoyable life in spite of fibro.  You can too!

 

I hope your doctor ran a battery of tests to rule out other illnesses that have many of the same symptoms as fibro.  This is why fibro is hard to get diagnosed.  So many symptoms are like that of other illnesses. 

 

I use ibuprofen with food, extra strength Tylenol, malic acid/magnesium supplements and vitamin D3 supplements to help with pain and fatigue.  I also do gentle stretching exercises, gentle daily exercises (I walk and swim), gentle massages, and I pace myself.  All of this combined keeps me in control of fibro.  Also, maintaining a positive attitude helps more than I can tell you.  I rarely think about how I'm feeling.  Pain is a "given" with this illness so I've accepted that as my new normal and have moved on with my life.  I just take a day at a time and count my blessings and this works great for me.

 

Be sure to check out Fibro 101...the second thread on the forum.  There are links to good information about fibro and you will learn a lot there.  Good starting links are called Symptoms, What Else Could It Be, and A Thorough Explanation of Fibromyalgia.  There are also links to the gentle stretching exercises  that I mentioned.  Also, there are links about the vitamin and supplement I mentioned and how these work in your body.  These have helped quite a few members and they have helped me, too.  There also is a great link about maintaining a positive outlook.  This helps with any illness or problem you may have.  It truly does!

 

I'm looking forward to getting to know you better.  Don't hesitate to ask questions because we are here to help you.  Hope to hear more from you soon

 

Sherrine

Welcome, Fibrowhat:

I am sorry to hear that your are experiencing so many problems at such a young age. I believe that I was probably born with fibro, althought I was just diagnosed about 11/2 years ago. I can remember times when the symptoms really complicated my life as a young person.

As some of the others have said, the pain does not go away, although there are a number of steps that anyone can take to manage the symptoms. These can include various types of exercise, stress management, dietary changes, medications, and supplements. A good night's sleep is also important in order to manage pain effectively. Usually people use a combination of methods, and you have to experinment in order to find what works best for you. Even then, methods occasionally need to be modified in response to pain. The important thing is to keep moving and not give in to the pain. Inactivity is our worst enemy!