I work full time. After my diagnosis I had my shift switched from the 5 am to 2 pm shift because it was going to kill me! Now I work 6:30 to 3:30 with a 40 min commute so I have to leave my house at 5:45 at the latest. I'm in bed every night at 9 and I take Melatonin and read for a bit until I'm sleepy. My supervisor and manager both know of my diagnosis and I have permission to be late when I need to...and maybe it is that permission that pushes me to not take advantage of it. I also get PTO instead of separate vacation and sick leave, so every time I call in sick I loose a potential vacation day and I hate doing that!
Each morning when the alarm goes off at 4:45 I tell myself "This is the worst you are going to feel today, so get up and get moving." It is almost always true that I'm in my worst pain when I first wake up. I walk around the work building every day during my lunch because the more I move the better I feel. I even sent out a standing invite to my co-workers to join me when they can. I do stretching exercises at my desk and get up and walk around every half hour or so...I almost never IM or email my co-workers, I walk to their desk to talk to them.
My weekends are for sleeping and relaxing...plus a little cleaning. I need that time to recuperate enough to make it back to work on Monday. Some times I resent that I can't have more fun on my weekends, but I have hope that I'll be able to get some control over my disease and then maybe I'll have more flexibility.
I have three kids (11-17) and a cat and dog that count on me. I also make sure that the kids get to bed at nine (they might not be asleep, but they are in their rooms and quiet) and it is healthier for all of us to get a good night's sleep. I'm also right now working on our diet, trying to eat as much healthy food as possible.
I make more money at the job and I have better benefits than I would if I got disability. I have a kid going away to college next year and I have 20 more years until I can retire, so I'm going to keep plugging away as long as I can. I am an optimist that some day my 401(k) will actually earn some money.
Talk to your dr. about
medicines that might help. I'm taking Savella and it has increased my energy. I'm also taking Malic Acid and magnesium. Most of the time 600 mg of Advil is enough to keep me moving, but on really bad days I'll take half a Vicodin when I arrive at work (I don't like to drive after taking one) if my work isn't too mentally demanding that day.
Mainly I found that if I just didn't make not going to work an option, I'd find ways to make sure I made it to work. I feel your pain, some days it really just sucks.