Hi everyone,
I never thought I'd see the day where I'd write about something as simple as grocery shopping, as if it were this grand event, but I guess it is now :)
I told my boyfriend that I'd like to go with him to do the shopping tomorrow. The past few months have been particuarly hard with exhaustion, and he's been shouldering alot of the everyday responsibilities.
Aside from one other time, I haven't left the house in two months except to go to the Dr which took every ounce of energy I had.
I had one day about 3 weeks ago where I was feeling better than I had in a long time and I went shopping with him. It was bittersweet because I felt sooo good at first, almost like I was getting a glimpse, however small, of the old me.
I stood in the bakery department for a moment smiling, taking it all in, like a kid when the world is still new.
I looked around at everyone and thought "I remember this, being normal, being part of this world"
I managed to make it through the whole trip feeling good until we checked out.
Dizziness and exhaustion hit again and I tried to keep smiling and remain upbeat. Days like that don't come around often and I wanted to hold onto it as long as I could.
I had to take a nap when we came home. It was a clear sunny day and I was back in bed. I tried not to let it get me too down. I was just thankful to have those few hours.
It's the littlest things that I miss and I'm just grateful when I can experience them again.
I realized that I'm excited about tomorrow. I felt silly for being excited over something like grocery shopping, but I've learned to be grateful for even the smallest things.
I'm grateful to have found this forum too and all of you :) Thank you all for making my day's so much brighter.
I hope everyone has a great evening.