I had a bad "attack" a little over a week ago. involved severe vomitting and cramping and pain and exhaustion to the point that I couldnt lift my own arm. Lasted hours. Took few days for soarness to disapate. So why cant I function now? I am so exhausted, sleeping 8+ hours. Everything is so hard to do. feels like I am just exhausted. comfortable for me is sitting like a rag doll with arms limp and face just limp and zoning. To be otherwise takes energy that is exhausting, to try to accomplish something small is almost too much and I am usually trembling slightly before I finish.
WHat gives. Pain is not so bad. So my mind is set to go, my body just doesnt want to do sh!t.
Went to grocery store. Felt like I was the hunchback of notre dame. Freakish. I felt retarded! My thought pprocess so sluggish. flouresence making my vertigo worse.
after reading my typing...yeah I am still dealing with symptoms (always). It is just that I feel so guilty that my so helpful hubby will come home and dryer is full, dishes dirty. But I did do others....brought a load down. cleaned our vanity and bathtub. Fed our spoiled great danes. Researched my condition more. Tried to find others that I can help and that can help me. I have only been awake five hours.
I am typing this in short stents. My arms get tired.
I thought to go easy on myself. Give in to the fatigue and take it easy. uhm... been a week... WHat do you do for this? How long does yours last? How does yours feel?
This is driving me insane!!!! I think part of me (The survival guide) said to heck with it. DOnt fight. It will pass. Just like the pain days. I AM STILL IN PJ"S!!!!! My husband is wonderful, but he has lost so much too because of my illness. We were newlyweds when this hit. He married one woman and got another for his life long wife. God bless him. I actually feel guilty because he is now stuck with me. I was never an easy person to be with, no matter how many people described me as sweet and always smiling. I one of those upfront and honest. Speak-My-Mind-kind-of girls.
I know that having fibro/cfs is depressing, but I am usually well grounded, greatful...
DO YOU GET THIS FATIGUE. THIS EXHAUSTION? WHAT IS IT LIKE? FOR HOW LONG? WHAT DO YOU DO FOR IT?
I am gonna go get them darn dishes right now. So I am pushing...in the end it feels like its for nothing.
WAIT. I will get them after I rest my wrists n arms for a bit first......(see)