Am I becoming paranoid?

I know the colder weather brings on more pain and achiness...I've been certainly feeling it, but lately been feeling overwhelming fatigued. My mind seems to go straight to thinking....cancer recurrence. I didn't spend time worrying about it before and told myself I wouldn't...but in the last week I've thought about it often. I was told that if it did recurr it wouldn't necessarily be in the lungs...it could my liver, brain or bones.

I describe my flare pain as bone crushing pain...how would I know the differance?  I don't like worrying...it's a waste of time if I have no control over the situation. Maybe worry is a normal part of once having cancer, but it is a part I could live easier without.

December, I go to my pulmonologist...a chest x-ray will be taken. In February, I'll have CT scans done.

I keep indulging in positive self-talk and keep telling myself I'm OK.

thanks for the vent

Joy, I get bloodwork done every 8-10 weeks because i'm on Methotrexate. My CBC's and CMP's were just fine when I had cancer. If I did not have a routine chest x-ray because of my pulmonary hypetension, the lung cancer would not have found.

Hugs, Robin

I've concluded that once you have cancer...maybe it is normal to think about reccurence some times, and in time I won't worry about it...the lupus or scleroderma doesn't frighten me anymore, I've gotten used to it

If you are overwhelmingly fatigued and it continues, call the pulmonologist and let them know. They can decide if they want to see you earlier. I know I wouldn't take chances. It most likely is nothing and the doctor might tell you that, too. That sure beats worrying about it.

Sherrine

If your pain doesn't get less, then I would run it by your Dr. Hopefully it's the weather change. I like to read postive scriptures from the Bible when I am having anxiety. Music is my best comfort.

Thank You all for your kind words and caring concern. This morning I woke with a bad cold and all my conditions are flaring. More than likely this explains the body draining fatigue, I've been feeling. The cold weather and my compromised immune system did a number on me. It probably did not help, that I spent a couple hours pulling up my dying flowers and trimming everything back, this weekend. Hubby yelled at me for working out in the yard. I find it enjoyable but tend to do more than I should.

I plan on taking it easy...I'm exhausted...plan on a long soak in the tub, getting dressed, take a muscle relaxer, lounge around watching TV with my heating pads and keeping hydrated.

Flares and colds do come to an end...hope this is short lived :)

Hugs, Robin