Hi, AmIgoingcrazy. I don't know if you noticed, I also gave you the "new member" welcome - moved your post, etc - and then noticed Sherrine had done it 10 hours ago - oh well....
So if you saw a thread suddenly disappear, it was mine.
Sounds like you could really use some support. You will find it here! We're all in this crazy boat together. It's true that what helps one doesn't always help another, but we all do understand the pain factor.
Debbie