medical community is idiots!!!!ooops sorry its a book "Warning long boring useless post"

I’m 40 now

Been going out of state for health care 10 years or more

My state refuses to treat anymore

And calls to surrounding cities said we won’t take chronic pain

i recently had what everyone dreads early this year i went to a specialist in the state i use for my medical

He listened and asked and poked over a hour

Finally he said

No doubt you have fibro and i haven’t seen often you have had dormant and off and on your whole life then full blown in 30s

Also chronic fatigue and pain your whole life that’s why you could never build up tolerance on jobs like everyone else

Wow over 100 jobs and now I’m 40 they find that thanks for the to late diagnoses

He said my adhd screws drugs chemistry or something

I get no addiction duh i knew that he said adhd is why drugs work then stop or like in my past store like a

chipmunk(storing almost killed me 3 or so times er said how the h are you still awake and alive? It was that high)

But then after all the knowledge the dreaded words

Sorry there’s nothing left you have used all the meds you have no options( 3 pain clinics tens units tons of

pain killers only 3 work and the 3rd they won’t give me PT i failed PT more than i can count i was too high to read at pain clinic tests)

Every option and med has been tried my doc basically the same

I have severe well that’s not the word we never seen vit d as low as you(wow i see a pattern)

Then recently low T adults will know what that is again wow it goes that low

that’s ok the wife’s diabetic with no drive so perfect match and hey heres a positive of this post when making

love is out of the way wow the reconnecting and happiness now that something isn’t always in the way or causing fights

So many on here post keep trying don’t give up etc can you not read medically it’s done medically its tired of me

I’m not going thousands of miles im on disability i can’t afford that i can barely afford to go 20 milesI got a

great doc besides always tests watches my health drugs organs working best i have found

So he refuses the last drug that works he makes up for it

I also have pass out migraines and headaches every day mild medium high then migraine

3 neurologists first found a dying calcifying gland didn’t say which I read pit or one is the normal to do that

They all blame that the last in the other state come on everyone say it with me sorry can’t do anything but emergency migraine meds

We tried everything and med out

Wow I’m sooo not shocked to hear that

My local health network I tried to get copies of records on dvd said thousands it would cost they have 3 of

those floor to ceiling folder holders full no joke no lie plus all the annexes have records in basements not in

system wow I’m one screwed up sob to have that many records

I had 3 severe accidents last two years ago we got rear ended while waiting in line

The kid hit us over 40mph no brakes didn’t even know there was problem tiil hit us

I glanced in mirror they say must have tensed up I broke the brake pedal

I have never know how o able to cry out any noise in pain my messed up child hood jobs and adhd

Well that day I found my voice I always had fubar lower back

The local fire they didn’t flex the door they didn’t slide board under left a inch or so then pulled me onto it

I felt my lower pop grind and let go o the names and words my wife was shocked huh I cuss all the time she said not like that uh ooops

Then my local er it happened to be a doc I had fought with so he refused pain meds

Ever since that accident every month chiro I can’t sleep in bed more than 3 hours or so allot of nights a prisoner in my recliner instead of by my wife

I no longer have flares I just have when I have pushed it to hard it shuts me down stiff hard to move pain full etc can last days to weeks depending on how hard I pushed it

But I refuse to quit I refuse like wife says you have never quit anything in your life but you got to slow down

I’m loosing its slipping away I refuse to loose I don’t overdo it every day but every day exercise walk or stores
or stuff on those millions of cards from chiros and PT

Off and on I get angry and do too much or my car needs repairs bulbs etc

I hate this I go to shops for crap I know how to fix I got tools I stare at I can’t use anymore

I know engines brakes allot, I know allot of house long list adhd made me a sponge if I could do it hands on I learned it

Now it all slips every day year im happy im more mobile than allot I count that blessing

I count the blessing even though most answers came in my 30s and up

All I have is my bullheaded stubborn ways finally learned to open to my wife and tell the truth and everything going on

My local er wont treat unless emergency something broke cut off security threw me out when I politely

mannered just asked I want my patient rights a refusal to treat notice they knew they could get nailed so

heck no wow 5 guards came to play (im 6,3 built and fat lol I scare allot of people what my bald spot)

So now yup out of state ER and then this year that drug commission and other regulators clamped the screws

at least my area ER no longer to give narcs unless emergency my doc is under microscope and don’t want to
rock the boat with better pain killers

Then recently my IT band went out easy way is it feels like a oversized hunting knife in my thigh

Wow try getting up stairs car but again I won’t stop I cuss a lot wife has to pull me up allot

I was getting the hang of being more stubborn than the pain then the bad went to my knee I already had bad

knees told my favorite thing bike ride had to stay off well then this knee was also shot and other fun stuff at

my one job so now to go out if I want stores or much of a walk I have to wear a special steel support hinge

brace man like 5 or so dog gone straps to adjust and all but it keeps me up

I just get to a breaking point its always on step forward ten back im loosing my drive my fight but I have never quit anything in my life and wont now

I long to be able to cry out normal to curl in wife’s arms for comfort and so much more I just don’t know how

Just like medical community wont believe me because I can sit smiling and talking till I pass out no joke or lie or

brag I wish it were not true they won’t accept that you’re in that much pain being like that

Well my gym teacher liked tag our well and when hit their him or game get up be a man

My relatives no parents saying pretty much same faker liar only thing from my parents was my old man is a

rock won’t show or admit hmm sounds familiar that and I learned jobs say im lazy well pain must mean im

working harder better to many times to list a 600 pound water cooled over head spot wielder crane raised

lowered one night it broke wow I never knew a shoulder could do that lucky no nerve damage or anything

ripped got really lucky but they had one of a time getting it back in now im always in shoulder pain I was a

lead alarm investigator 40 miles to work stopped for accidents breakdowns whatever one night saw a broke

down turned lights on out to side to block traffic well a drunk clipped my lower back hips with door and mirror

and mirror caught my utility belt threw me 3 feet into the ditch

Everything broke radio smashed phone pager even a pair of cuffs my nightstick broke and part in my leg

I carry ems bag I got up threw destroys belt in trunk pulled stick out of my leg bandaged went to work got temporary issued and worked the rest of shift and week man the bruise was huge

I really did myself in and pay now but 100s of jobs you look for answers right or wrong ways to keep them right or wrong

Then my ex-wife screwed my ex friend and her boyfriend decided to teach me she didn’t want forgiveness led me into a trap her boyfriend got me from behind and beat me with a stell bar o did I mention 5 friends

watching so I didn’t fight back she was sweet enough to tell all my skills military martial arts mma police and a few others o sweetie I didn’t know you cared Wow was I that bad in bed you could have just said something

Sorry I made a to long understandable book of my life but to sum funny how we always pay our penance for our past one way or another

I accept my road I accept the end of answers I even accept that I have to walk alone and outcast for who I

am and who and what I refuse to hid anymore ie my ahd hyper goofy I say fun person they say annoying like I

saw a mini plunge well my head works hmm its small im bald I wonder plop yippie wow look at me it stuck hey wait where did my wife go **** get to know me im a great person

I just want to help others encourage give a push you can do more try or other ways

Thanks sorry for a book read a sentence a day and in 5 years you’ll be half way ****
Sorry I cant type or post well severe learning and communication problems from adhd
But yet can call bills etc and get anything I want so strange how problems work

Find a place inside where there’s joy, and the joy will burn out the pain.
One thing you can't hide - is when you're crippled inside.
John Lennon
One good thing about music, when it hits you, you feel no pain.
Bob Marley

Boy, I'll say you have! But what else can you do?

Kermit, would you mind just breaking your posts up into paragraphs? The way they are, they're really hard to read.

I hope something gives, that you get some better luck soon.

Debbie

Wow is right! To say you been through it is the biggest mini statement of a lifetime! I feel extremely bad for you. I am really sorry for the sh** you have gone through. I truly admire that you can find joy still! I would have laid down to die a long time ago!

The circumstances are different but I can still relate to you. High tolerance to pain meds (although you have complete tolerance), screwed up child hood, screwed up sex drive (except I'm relating to your wife here- ), the frustration of everything! Tired of ppl telling me how smart I am yet I am trapped in poverty! Shut up, it sucks! I don't want my kids stuck in this crappy life with me!

Your ADHD may affect your ability to write but it's obvious you have high intelligence! The fact you can relate to great musicians attest to this.

I wish I could do something for you! I wish I could relieve some of your pain! I can't. Period. But I read all your post. I listened. I always got a kick out of your name on here.

By the way, what planet of a state do you live in anyway?

Dawn

o and i have a bad sense of humor

i got man boobs so big hooters asked me to work there

im driving and the potholes make my boobs bounce so much it hurts

man i need a bra

she named my well uh she says hey mr shrinky dinky ahhhhhh hey woman you got rug burns on yer boobs

oo im bad

i like my bald spot a little turtle wax a car buffer high shine but then planes think its a landing light

i got sued for blinding a guy once

hers a favorite i found on a website since i fall allot or my back drops me

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“ In the past, when we get angry with someone, we would fight. Now, we just unfriend them on Facebook. That will teach them to mess with us! ”

hey laugh it burns the pain away be a pain in the a o thats just a fun benefit of life (me)

you know your old when everything you say kids stare blankly at you and ask whats that

a forum admin told me once her kid came to her saying my phone is beeping whats wrong **** she said call waiting