Barbara,
How are you doing? Thinking of you tonight. Let us know how it's going. Many of us have been there...or are there now...same as you. I know everyone grieves differently.
I was surprised at the physical pain I felt, in my chest, in my body everywhere. Just keep taking deep breaths, which I am practicing doing. Wish you didn't have to go through this...(me either). ((Hugs))
Angie1953