As you folks have said time and time again, being a caregiver is a real challenge. I do my best to keep everything on an even keel, and try not to worry so much, but each day when I wake up I say a little prayer and keep my fingers crossed. It seems that we get one problem under control, and up pops another one. She gets really down when she remembers things she used to enjoy doing (shop, weekend garage sales, etc) and now she just doesn't have the energy. It's really tough wanting her to feel good, but knowing she has to get much sicker to get a transplant. I don't want her to get worse, but in the back of my mind I know that it has to happen for her to get a transplant and a new lease on life. She has an appointment to see her Hepatologist next week, so I suppose we will find out if her MELD score has changed. Thanks for the comments and support, before I found this group I felt like that I was the only person in the world having to deal with this ordeal. Family and friends just don't understand how tough it is for both of us, as they have no idea what this roller coaster ride is really like. I just pray that my health doesn't go down-hill, for if something would happen to me, she would be up the creek, as she just can't manage her meds, appointments, etc.