diagnosed w/end stage liver disease this year and now drinking like a fish again

I'm at my whit's end.  My husband was diagnosed w/ esld in january and told if he didn't quit he would be dead in a year.  He had been in the hospital for 4 months and went to rehab but started drinking again 4 months ago.  Now in the last month it has progressed to everyday again.  he averages a pint or more a night of vodka.  I'm tired of the lies and I don't think i could see him get sick again.  I would appreciate any advice at all.  I don't want to be a widdow at 27 yrs old.

Peaches, Welcome to HW. Sorry to hear about your husband drinking. SeaWings has given you some good advice! You can't change what your husband does, he has to! But you need to take care of yourself! I have walked in those shoes myself! My husband has been sober for quite awhile now. But the damage has been done and is not reversible. He is now on the Transplant list. It is the family that does suffer, our lifes have been torn up over their mistakes! Please attend AL-Non as suggested, they can help you cope with this. I love my husband very much, but if he were to start drinking again, I would not hang around, I have been through too much. I know this is not much help, my prayers go out you!

Teresa

Hi Peaches, I'm so sorry you are going through this.  I know it's a tough road and your so young to deal with this.  Even though your husband has decided to drink again, it's not your fault.  He is the only one who could make up his mind and what is more important to him.  I have walked your same footsteps for a long time until my husband became sick and almost cost him his life.  Thank god he made the decision to quit drinking but you know something, I never gave up on him.  No matter how angry I got or how it made me feel, I knew it was a sickness that was hard to beat.  I kept praying for so long for god to help me and do something.  Believe, I wanted out of the marriage because I didn't want to deal with it, I was your age when I married my husband knowing he had an alchohol addiction.  He was non-violent but very moody and impatient when he was drinking and when he was sober he was a different person as I'm sure you know what I'm talking about.  But I just couldn't leave him because I loved him so much.  You need to seek help for yourself because that is the only thing that will help you if you choose to be in the marriage.  I don't know if you have children with your husband, but if you do, they need to be taken care of as well.  I know it's hard and a tough decision to make, but please hang in there, take care of yourself and pray to god for answers, he will give them to you.  Good luck....