My mind is not right guys please pray for me!!!!!!

Hey everyone how are you all? myself not to good I think I mentioned in my last post that I have bipolar,paranoia,anxiety,and panic attacks brought on by my IBS symptoms.I'm scared of people and crowds I hate feeling this way,when I'm walking outside I worry that everyone knows about my IBS and I know this is not true but I have these delusions that are messing with my mind.Certain sounds trigger my anxeity and my fears,when I'm going through my symptoms like going number 2 especially if it's more then one time I start having panic attacks thinking people know that I'm using my bathroom a lot and just talking about me in discust and laughing at me.I know this is not true but I cant get that out my head and just know that it's really really not true.My body feels uncomfortable and uneasy I cant sit down still cause I'm reminded of being on the toilet when I'm not this is crazy right I've cried over this at times.I just want to be set free from these feelings it does not help that I spend my time alone and isolated I'm hardly getting any sleep that is not good for my body at all.I feel the IBS is holding my mind and body prisoner.Guys please pray for me that the Lord steps in everytime the devil comes and attacks my sanity I need all the prayers I can get please.

I know talking about this wont help I just ndont want to feel I'm alone in the way my mind is working.I'm on meds for my depression and bipolar my moods go up and down I hate this!!!!! I just want this gone so I can feel  normal I need the Lord right now he's all I got beliving is not enough for me I want these meds to work and get rid of these foolish thoughts but I know I'm  ok now sort of lol.Oh and having gas makes me start feeling panic I know everyone has gas but I've had so many embarrassing moments in public with it before realalizing I had IBS and that was what was going on with me.I just want to be healed from all of this I'm just crying out for help,I want my mind back.Anyways praying for you always and please do the same for me love you all,all my best.xoxoxoxoxo

Hi Ronee,thanks I would but I'm scared to put out my first name clear on this site,if you have an email I would be glad to give you my name that way.Or I may be able to be reached by my yahoo email or IM in the contact icons by our post and names.Thank you agian for your prayers and I will pray for you too get in contact with when you can take.

Hi Ronee,thanks for the prayers but I'm afraid to put my name here on this site for some strange reason.I think you can get in contact with me by clicking on one of the contact icons next to our names and post.If not if you have contact info I would be more then gladly to send you my name that way,my name begins with a J so you may call me J if you want lol.Thank you again Ronee I greatly appreciate it take care ok looking forward to hearing back from you.

 

Hey - I would think that "JT" would suffice for now. Which is a nickname for many anyway!

Like Renee - I usually like to put a first name with a member of a forum I frequently post on. But this is all, John/Bob/Ronee/Mary/Sue, etc., etc. You get the idea. It's almost natural for me too, to ask this question.

But it's natural for you jt80 to keep this info personal. I understand that.

The important thing here is to get you well again jt80 and help you thru these anxieties.

Hang in there.....praying for you too jt80. Always.

Marsky/Mary

You're welcome jt. I guess the mom in me comes out when I read your posts! It's one thing to be my age - 54 and struggle with IBS on a daily basis. But when it strikes someone much younger I guess it just makes me feel for you even more. I am quite content living a quiet lifestyle with plain food. More than content really. My daughters joke their dad and I rarely go out anymore. Of course that darn recession doesn't help either but overall I thrive from a calm, quiet lifestyle - calendar wise (I don't fill it chock full of activities), diet wise, stress wise. I think I've actually perfected how to say no. LOL Had someone told me I'd be such a homebody at this age and stage of parenting I would have told them were crazy! My husband and I used to imagine having the freedom (no babysitters to pay!) to go out a lot. And then I get cancer....but that's not to say I'm depressed about it either. I'm just very content to live my life this way.

I guess if there is anything I wish for you, it would be for you to find your own individual contentment. So when your fears and anxieties begin to surface, you'd have strategies in place to use. So they wouldn't stress you out so much.

So you're quite welcome jt. You're always in my prayers. Try to have a good afternoon.

jt80

     Wow, it is bad having IBS alone but to have what you have on top of it, it's just not fair.  Maybe the answer is finding a new doc to look over your meds and get you on the right combination of drugs that will work for you.  I have known people that are going through what you are and it just took the right doc and the right meds to give them peace in their lives.

Just know that you are never alone in this struggle.  I think that I remember you saying that you are young.  So I know and have faith that you will get the help you need with your struggle.  Its just so hard with the IBS alone that having other difficulties just kind of pushes you to the brink.  So keep praying to God as I do many times a day, and we may not get the answers that we think we should get but we know that God is good and he alone will give us the strength to continue on.

I have had the worse 2 weeks ever, with my intestines so swollen and they wont go down.  So drank a bottle of Citirus Mag this morning so I am playing the waiting game for it to work.  I know that the added stress that I am going through with my father on his death bed has made it worse.  I am still waiting for my referrel to another GI specialist 3.5 hrs away, and that is taking forever to come through.  That alone is so disappointing to be waiting for a simple phone call for 2 months, so I call every day to bug them to get it done.

Sometimes I think that I am weird I pray every night for me to be normal and have a BM on my own daily like other people.  Something that simple would greatly improve my life, plus I pray for my intestines to mellow out.

I too avoid people and keep to myself a lot because I am sick daily with this and just don't want to be around anyone when I am sick with this.  I hate being the sick friend all the time because that is just not me normally.  But I have had IBS since 93 and use to have D and now for 4 years its C...but not bound up with stool, just air that will not let anything pass.

JT, just know that you are in my prayers daily and that God will give you peace in your life.

Wishing you well .  Leslie