I am TERRIFIED and don't know where to turn!!

Hi Folks! Very first day here and not sure I am posting in the proper place, so if not , please forgive me. Will attempt a Readers Digest Version...wish me luck!......... 55 yr old F, no children...I have battled with Constipation since I can remember,but never with pain b4. Remembering back to pre-teen yrs...was nothing to go 3 wks without a BM,and settled in for a week long BM during "my time of the month"! Like clockwork! Month after month always the same, so accepted it and went on about my life! Now 55, Menopause, and no 4th week to rely on for relief! Have not had a colonoscopy to date....have had several appts over the last couple of yrs, but have cancelled due to FEAR...not of prep, not of Procedure...but FEAR of RESULTS! I have been empacted once due to pain med?, and had to do ER, all was well....NOW I have been in so much pain these last few months, I agreed to procedure....scheduled in 6 days!!! I have done repeated Fleet's, surgical gloved and dug around myself,to try to get some kind of relief...only resulted in Rabbit Pellets" so to speak. Gas passes fine...Just NO STOOL!! Only what tiny bit I can coax out myself!! Stomach pain is intense!! Especially when sitting!! I have picked up the phone 3x to cancel next weeks appt...I just wanna do the prep, get cleaned out, and start again!! Mom lung cancer...Dad Prostate cancer...I am TERRIFIED!! And another concern abt Prep...if there is a blockage, will Prep shrink it enuff to pass? Or will my intestines Explode??? I am so very very scared and in so much discomfort,and look 8 months pregnant! Pain is intense, but have had it so long it is bearable...has anyone else ever been in this position?? Terrified to have the colonoscopy done for fear of the results??? I'm so afraid I have let this go on too long, and what used to be a pollyp, is now the size of Texas! I am so worked up I am frozen wth Fear.

No Meemers, and Ty so much for replying....I have NEVER seen a GI!! Ever!!!! Just scheduled for a routine Colonoscopy...I think I am going to try to have a consult first....because this is NOT a ROUTINE Colonoscopy!!! This is TOTALLY different!! I am partially to blame,because I never really explained how BAD the situation was with MY doc,I mention the constipation,and she suggests metimucial,my diet and exersise etc...But in her defense,she has no idea the intensity of the situation, She was just elated when I finally agreed to have 1!! She has been on me for 5 yrs to have it done! I tried stool softners and Lax's and must have taken 1 too many of 1, or not enough of the other, because 1 day....with no warning at all...upon getting out of my car, stool began to flow uncontrollably,was no way of stopping it! For someone with my history of constant constipation,to have that happen,is what FINALLY sent me back to her to agree to a
colonoscopy.....so here we are today, 6 days from D-Day and I am terrified! I feel much saner now that I have decided to consult prior to any procedure or prep! I will keep u updated on what he says,because I KNOW i'm gonna revert right back to Terrified again!! I am soooo glad I had the courage to sign up here and post this, I have read alot of feedback from other folks,on other posts! KUDOS to whoever started this!!! Thank You so very much!!

Post Edited (nananet) : 1/17/2013 9:02:42 PM (GMT-7)

I would have it done now too. If you wait till you get an appt with a GI and then reschedule it you could be waiting weeks more. For my prep it said if constipation is an issue to use miralax daily the week before. I would try that to get things moving along and drink plenty of water to get things moving also.

I feel bad that you have had to endure for soo long with your condition. i am also new to forum and i had a colonoscopy done at 26. I too was afraid of findind out the results but i knew that i could not live any longer without finding out if something was seriously wrong with me at the end of the day i was all clear...yes i deal with ibs but atleast its not very serious. you need to know what is going on so that you can move on and learn to manage you condition properly

nananet,

I completely sympathize with your fear. I always found pain increases my fear to an irrational level. Please see your doctor asap. DO NOT CANCEL. Imagine how wonderful it will be to be out of pain and having a plan a, plan b or even a plans c to try until you find just the right one for your body.

My children and I have all had endoscopies and colonoscopies. None of us have had any pain or problems from the procedures. All of us had a wonderful sense of relief to finally find out what the problems were.

If you can, ask to see the photos of the inside of your body. It is really quite beautiful and you will not see any fecal matter. Sometimes it helps to see how healthy an organ looks in spite of how much pain you have been in.

Please keep us updated.