I felt like I wanted to post this morning after just getting home.
I was up again twice in the night, although it doesnt seem to get to me any more - it just seems normal now. I was worried about going out this morning, because I had to go the bank and a few other places, and I was concerned that I might suddenly need to go. This is the first time I have been out properly since it has been REALLY bad, and I had no idea where the toilets were.
I made it to the bank and the first couple of shops, and as i was making my way back to the car, my stomach started cramping up and I was in the middle of the shopping centre and the toilets were right at the other end. I wasn't sure what to do but I just took a few deep breaths (with people staring at me wondering what I was doing) and made it outside and before I knew it I was back in my car.
I thought about coming straight home, but I went to the supermarket for the few bits I needed and made it round there as well. I did notice though that I was in a really bad mood whenever people got in my way - probably through fear that i didnt want to be held up just in case. I made it home, and as yet still haven't gone, although I'm feeling pretty bad at the moment.
But in my haste to get home I completely forgot to to go the health food shop to see if I could get any probiotics that you all talk about - it was right at the other side of town and I would have had to walk all the way there and I honestly don't think I could have made it. If I'm feeling brave later on I might go out again. I've the spent the worst week of my illness being at home or being at work where I know there is a toilet within easy reach, and I didn't realise how nervous I would be about going out.
So now I have done what I need to do, I;m going to go and put my pyjamas back on, bring my duvet downstiars, lie on the couch and do absolutely nothing!