feeling very down

i feel so stresed at mo as i thnik i am getting the sceond sinus infection in three weks. i am stressing as it is very close to going in to hosptial in three weks time for an op. i just wanna feel beter but it doesnt seem like it is goimng to happen.

to top my horrible wek fo i saw a dietition and hvae put more weigth on. i am feeling depresssed at the mo. nothing seem s to be giong rigth for me. i feel thta may be all thsi is hvaeing a effect on my stomach and thta is waht is cauing the pian to be a lot worse.

You're so sick all the time and have so much D, I can't see how you can be putting on actual weight, unless you're on some medicine that causes it. Surely, surely that weight gain is fluid or a sign of something else. How can you possibly be eating and retaining that many calories??

thnaks eveyone
i am not sure why i am puting on weigth. as keriamon siad i am always ill. i hvae ben ill for monhts now. i am not sure waht is giong on wiht my healht. today i had my pre op medical and had to hvae an ecg as my blood presure is high. my gp is cehcking my imune system agian as it has ben low. i hvae just ben given steriods by my hosptail consultant today for my op. i am alraedy taking thme for my nose and asthma. may it is these steriods thta are making me put on weigth. i raelly wisj i knew waht was giong on wiht me.

i hvae had such a bad day today i had to wait four hours up the hosptail and thne while i was up there had to spend loads of time in the toilet as had about ten bms while there. i am worred thta i will get ibs wehn i am giong in to hosptail.

i hvaent ben to the mental healht unit for my counciling recently becuase i couldnet face it. and as i hvae ben ill. i hvae tryed the diet recording but my dietition siad i wasnt eating thta much and she doesnet know why i am putung weigth on. i just feel like i will never get beter and will awlays be in and out of hosptail.

sarah

thnaks
i went to see my gp today as my stomach has been raelly bad for a few days. i canet stop hvaeing bms. she was raelly nice to me as she knows i am nerous at giong in to hopstial for my op. i thnik it has caused my bowels to get much worse. i am acutally losing weigth now. she is backing my counliors decision to push for congative behauoral thearpy. she thniks thsi would be good for me. thsi and continu to see the mental healht unit as i still hvae so much going on. i am still findit so hard to live wiht another condition hvae i. it is a cronhic condtion. i sometimes hope thta the floor will open and swallow me up. i try to foget abuot it. the more i put it to the back of my mind the worse my feelings get.

to top it all off my sister in law told me thta she is expecting. whilset thsi is good news and i am raelly happy for thme it is hard to deal wiht. i hvae a condition thta means i may not be able to hvae kids somethnig i would love to do. agian the more i hard these feelings the thye resurface.

i hvaent ben rigth since my nan passed away thre years ago since i hvae lost another two close relatives one being my grandad who was ill for two years.
this on top of every thing esle is starting to get to me.

sorry startin g to pour my heart out now. just not sure where to go from here.

Hi oneday,
You were seeing a mental health professional, were you not? I agree with Canyon, you really should continue seeing someone about your problems. It helps tremendously to have someone present who can listen and give you tools to help cope.
I am so sorry your troubles continue. I wish you strength to fight for your health against the medical system and your employer, I also wish you mental and physical help while you go through this difficult time.
We will continue to be here for you.
Take care.

I don't think you have found the right mental health help. Hopefully they will listen this time. I think the cognitive therapy is worth a try. It has helped some people.

I don't know what you mean by they speak to other people. You need counseling on a regular basis. You probably need some antidepressants and you need a Dr. to handle that. I just wonder if you are really listening to what they are telling you to do. I don't know I am not there but there has to be an answer and you just haven't found the right person. Tell them you need individual counseling with a qualified counselor. I don't know you system. You do. If you are not on meds for your angst and depression you need to see about that.