((((Dana))))
Bless your heart. I know exactly what you mean-it all gets so overwhelming sometimes and other people just don't understand because they don't experience what you are going through. With all our bodies put us through it's hard NOT to be depressed, and it seems the smallest things can set off the waterworks - mine get a regular workout 
. Trust me it does help to have someone around who at least tries to understand and is supportive- family, friend; and if you don't have anyone close, there are alot of good people on this forum who do know and understand...and care.
As far as the internal bleeding in the ears, I've never experienced that, nor have I heard of it in connection with lupus.....but then again, sometimes I think this cotton pickin disease makes up it's own rules as it goes along!
Please feel free to email me if you need someone to talk to. I hope you feel better soon.
Donna