wish this were easier

      I returned home after having spent ten days helping my parents out (dad has cancer and mom has COPD) and feeling fairly good.  The Imuran I have been on for two months seems to be working and I am tolerating it well.  So I was surprised when I got hit with a stout wave of fatigue, joint pain and lethrgy this afternoon.  I worked in the yard (made sure I was well-covered and wore my hat), but after three hours I felt the same familiar routine settling into my body.  It's hard to keep from being depressed!!!!  It's times like this when I really hate having this disease.  To make matters worse, I found out my cousin, who had Lupus, passed away three days ago.  She had a heart attack and they were unable to revive her.  So naturally, I freaked out a little.  I was in the hospital last summer for uncontrollable atrial fibrillation and so hearing how she died really got me down.  I have friends to talk to and a husband who understands what I go through, but I just feel defeated right now.  I have two more weeks of work, so that part is good.  At least I have the rest of the summer to look forward to....a time of both emotional and physical healing.  Thanks for just letting me vent!!!!

Laura aka Oreo

three hours? hmmm there was a day last year I could go over 12. oh those days are but a distant memory....memory, huh? yeah, I have that lupus fog thing now.lol anyhoo, I can't even get outside in the shade without splotching up.

I think you are trying to get your frustrations out. You've had a very trying time emotionally and physically. Take it easy and take some "me time".