griping vent!

Terrible insomnia the last few days. My hip hurts...all over. Front, side, back and inside. Enough to cause my knee to hurt too. My teeth hurt. I may have some version of thrush as my mouth tastes metallic and there is extra plaque and nastiness in the AM. Some extra mucus in the female parts. My ear occasionally gets sharp pains but then I wonder if I've imagined them. My eyes are burning. My foot itches on the bottom, and my back gets SO stiff when I don't move every 5 minutes. My nose has painful sores that don't heal for months at a time.

My partner was just diagnosed with uterine cancer and we are waiting to see if radiation treatment is next. (My mother was diagnosed with uterine cancer when I was 4 - hysterectomy, radiation & chemotherapy then recurrence of some kind of cancer every 4 or so years for 25 yrs. I really don't want to be that kind of caregiver again.) So this is scary if I let my mind wander.

I don't seem to have any friends "with skin on them". Meaning that all my friends are now online, no-one much to talk to or do anything with except said partner who is now doing her own freaking out. Hip means I will probably permanently loose my walk/running friends.

No motivation to even clean up after myself in kitchen, etc. No appetite. Blah, blah, blah. I suddenly the other day noticed the yard tools in the dining room (normally they live in the water heater closet but had water heater replaced last week so they had to be moved), and realized at a gut level that "that is how hoarding starts" for people on those horrid tv shows. No motivation to put stuff away, then good stuff gets tangled up in bad, no motivation to sort & put away, then down the slippy slope we go...

I guess I need to do lots of things...get more depression meds, see an orthopedist about my hip, see a gp or maybe an ENT, hard enough just to find decent food for myself!

So, like I said, gripes and vents and I am in a major FUNK. Hope y'all are sleeping soundly tonight and that we all have better days tomorrow!

Lynnwood,

wow, you have alot on your plate right now. Anyone would be overwhelmed. I have a few suggestions. For just now, forget about the stuff, and take care of yourself. The stuff will still be there when you are better able to handle it. I have a hip that hurts alot too, maybe not as much as yours, but gives me trouble sleeping because I can't lay on it. Have you tried putting a pillow between your legs, or better yet a body pillow if you have one, helps take some pressure off.

As for getting some sleep, my new favorite is Tylenol PM. No after grogginess, no script needed. I am not sure what meds your taking and if they are safe, but a friend of mine was allowed to take them while pregnant, so for me, I felt they were safe enough to try, and I got such a great night sleep.

Sorry to also hear about your partner, added stress for us just adds to all our ailments too. You really need to find something that will help you relax and focus on that. If you can relax, even if just for an hour or two that will help you. Whether it is something as simple as a bubble bath, reading a book, sitting outside enjoying the spring weather, or watching a TV program.
Hope you feel some relief soon.

Hugs,
Debbie

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I'd think I'd be overwhelmed too. Just take it one day at a time. I hope your SO will be okay.

Thanks all. Now my body is acting out in other weird ways. (sorry, not comfortable discussing in open forum.) Hopefully thyroid and hormone tests will figure it out -- meanwhile no remedies for my extreme discomfort. Oh, my.

This too will pass.
Lynnwood