Hi, I'm new to this site and potentially looking for info, advice, etc. anythings appreciated!
I'm a 23 year old female, I'm a nurse so when there is something wrong with me I research & assess things, alot.
I've had problems with pain in my right wrist for years. For no reason every 1-2months I'll feel a surge of pain go through it and it becames immensely painful for 1-3 days, then goes away. When I was 19, I started having problems with headaches, fatigue, nausea & urinary frequency. Urine tests revealed blood & protein, but no infection. Tests/scopes revealed nothing, and it was never brought up again but the problems continued to come & go. Later that year I fell on my kneecap & it has never been the same since, it's difficult to bend, & exercise it seems to lock up and hurt more. When I was 20 I developed problems with my GI system. Excruciating stomach cramps, alternating constipation & diarrhea, the nausea continued. Again, testing/scopes found no cause, and that issue was also dropped. I just turned 23 and have been sick for 6 weeks. I developed red skin lesions on my arms, legs & neck, generally body itching, fever for no reason, a persistent dry cough, and 1 of my tonsils enlarged & has still not come down. On 2 occasions I coughed/vomited up blood. After a few days I started becoming short of breath, and had spells of difficulty breathing. Infection has been ruled out. A pulmonary function test revealed some type of obstructive defect, and that my diffusion capacity was down--they said very unnormal for an athletic girl in her 20s, especially for no known reason yet. I don't smoke either. A CT revealed diffuse thickening in my esophagus, possibly caused by inflammation.
After ruling out infection, a pulmonary embolism, celiac disease, other things, my doctor mentioned connective tissue diseases. Upon family research I have learned my maternal aunt has Lupus, and a paternal aunt has Scleroderma with Raynaud's.
On Monday, I had the blood tests done to look at lupus & other diseases like that. My doctor's office called today and said that some of the results were in & the doctor wants to see me about it. I'm really nervous, anxious, everything really right now. In a way it sounds horrible but I almost want her to say I have it just so this battle of constant testing is over with & I can finally have a diagnosis after all these years and get the right treatment to help control it.
What I'm basically asking is, how were you feeling right before diagnosis? Were you feeling like you would never find out what is wrong with you? Did you ever feel like maybe you were just crazy & it was all in your head? I feel like that alot of days now because for so many years they couldn't find anything. I'm just overwhelmed that if it is Lupus or something, how I'm going to adapt, all these medications, things to alter in your life stuff like that. Just need a little support, it would be appreciated. I'm also scared that if it's not this...then what is it & will it ever be found.