Hello Stephanie,
I don't have any leads on LLMDs in the areas you mentioned but I just wanted to say I'm so so sorry you are going through this. My heart breaks for you. It is not too late. You can get help. You can get better.
I am looking for an LLMD too. I relate to you feeling like you're dying. I have said those words too because I believed them. I even said them this morning to my DH because today has been and continues to be one not good day.
Please know you are not alone. This is NOT in your head. SOOO many of us have been told that very same thing. It's wrong and it's cruel to be told that. No one should have to suffer as you are, as so, so many of us are.
I've only been on this forum for a pretty short time frame, but everyone here is so caring and so helpful. Keep coming here and posting. You are not alone.
Do whatever you can at any given moment to help yourself in any way. Do you have any family or friends nearby? If so, I encourage you to not hesitate to reach out them. You need help and support.
Hugs,kathleent