Feeling very sad and emotional- PMS, Lyme herd, both or what?

Sometimes, it just comes over me so suddenly and I can't stop crying about how I feel so alone with this GD disease and how noone understands and how angry I am that I can't be normal and how guilty I feel about not being there as much as I want to be for my kids. And my husband has been basically nonexistent at home since his mother died only 3 weeks ago, so it has been a rough time all around for the family and I don't feel like adding to his worry but I am so alone and so scared- so I am having a good old fashioned pity party for myself. Anyone want to come??

Also, anyone have any advice- I have been seeing a NP in a practice about an hour from me and she only works 2 days a week and I had to miss my last appt due to weather and I emailed her some of my concerns and she hasn't gotten back to me yet - it has been 2 wks now since my appt. I was thinking of getting a 2nd opinion from Dr. Jemsek's office in DC which is only 20 minutes from me- but that would mean doing the whole evaluation again at the full cost (it is covered partially by my insurance). Of course I would see one of his NP's, but it would be alot closer if I were to go in for IV's for Myers cocktails or Glutatione or just visits. Any thoughts/opinions? My ins. is pretty good at paying under out of network benefits.

Maybe I should see an endocrinologist as well- I think I have been having some severe hypoglycemic reactions lately too.

I do see an LLMD currently and I have been treated for depression for about 10yrs with paxil although some months with my period can be pretty rough with pms. but my llmd was concerned about the depression and lyme getting worse, so I am watching it carefully. I am seeing my therapist next week so that is good but I do think food is really affecting me as well as my hormones.

I will also join your pity party. Sometimes I feel like instead of living day to day, I'm dying day to day. The ironic part of that is that they are both technically true. Everybody says that this is a long slow process and I think that is the most frustrating part for me. And I generally consider myself to be a very patient person. It is definitely a rough time of year for depression. One of my coworkers gets it pretty bad and he said this is the absolute worst time - his anxiety and depression double this time of year. Keep venting here, I want to hear how you are doing.