Posted 1/6/2014 6:39 PM (GMT 0)
Lyme disease is horrific, that's nothing new to anyone who has it, or knows someone who has it.
Before my diagnosis, and more so since I've started treatment, I've noticed a lot more clumsiness... and more inbalance/unsteadiness, and more twitching. I never really thought anyone else noticed this, and tried really hard to hide it because it's a little embarassing to me.
Over the holidays, my husband and I attended a get together with friends, we were all eating our meal, and sitting quietly at the table, enjoying our food. My hand twitched, and twitched hard enough that it banged the underside of the table, needless to say everyone looked up, and looked right at me. My good friend burst into laughter. At first, I was very upset, but started laughing too. Everyone wanted to know what had happened, I stated, "Oh, that's just Lyme disease".
Since then, I have I have little to know arm/hand strength, and drop things ALOT, I've broken numerous bowls, plates, and glasses, I have to ask for help with things like opening food packages and containers, the toothpaste, etc.
I started to get very depressed about it, as I've always been very independent, almost to a fault. The other morning, I grabbed my cup of coffee and headed to the living room to watch the morning news with my hubby, I didn't get 1/2 way there, before I lost control of my hand and my mug, coffee was everywhere and so were pieces of the mug.
I spoke to my ND about it, she reassured me that my symptoms could get much worse before they get better, and explained that I needed to learn to laugh at myself instead of getting depressed about it. She too, had Lyme, so she whole heartedly understands what I'm going through, she gave me examples of things that happened to her. I always feel better after an appointment with her.
So I've decided that maybe this is God's way of telling me that I need to not be so independent, let others help me and take care of me and to just take it easy for a while. Since taking on this mind set, I do feel a lot better.
Sorry for the ramble...