Honey I feel your pain. I had a nice apartment, great neighbors who loved me and even the leasing office was great and knew what I was going through. But I had to move out last July because the rent became too much and move somewhere cheaper. I hated it. Even though I'm paying less in rent I felt so secure there. My neighbor/new BFF was amazing and checked on me and my son daily.
It's very hard...I know. Pray on it and let your heart lead you. I will say this though...since moving into my apartment I have made some great connection, my son's new daycare is 2 minutes from us and the space is bigger.
My next stop once I get totally better is to buy a house...but for now let me beat down Lyme and Babesia and get through withdrawal symptoms of Lorazepam, save money and then go.
The last thing you need is additional stress.
Also Happy Birthday to your son