When it rains...

it pours... (or at least that is how it feels)

I need to vent...

Too much on my plate...
The company I work at is going bankrupt, I think 1 more month, then I'll be out of a job. My dr will probably put me on IV abx (I hope he will wait a bit longer, cause I can't pay for that when I'm out of a job, it's really expensive).
Our neighbours are harassing us (they are narrow minded freaks with nothing to do and want us out of the house, they told us themselves), I will need to sue them, cause they don't stop. Running around to land registry, court, maybe mediators, police, etc...
I had stopped my modified cowden protocol, because I had several infections, and couldn't do those and herx at the same time. I started again, and it feels like being hit by a hammer: herxing started just a few hours after starting the drops.
I can't sleep because of all of that, not even with sleeping meds.
I'm frustrated because I can't go on a holiday. Every 2 months I spend a holiday on tests and meds. Had to get my car fixed, large bill.
I'm not getting better, and I feel they are missing something. GP is no longer cooperative, too much effort. Will be seeing my llmd next week. I hope he has a plan for me. Food intolerances are back with a vengeance and I'm sooo tired... luckely less pain because of the LDN, the light of my life

I'm a mod, I shouldn't be whining... LOL

MarieLS

Marie,

Herxing sometimes involves an increase in histamines. Some find an antihistamine helpful to reduce herxing symptoms.

I personally prefer things like homeopathic histaminum or tea made from stinging nettle leaves in lieu of pharmaceuticals...

Anyway, sorry you're so overwhelmed... I hope you feel better soon,

Oh no, Sweetie. I'm so sorry.

I know how chaotic things can get.

It sounds like the neighbors really stink!! We don't need people with those kinds of attitudes.

Sometimes, when we don't have the money for vacations, we have to create vacations for ourselves. I.E., parks, walks, movies? Or treat yourself in your own house!

Sorry, about your job too. I wish there was something I could do to help.

XO Margaret

Thank you everyone...

I have put the neighbours aside for a few days, it was taking too much of my energy, I was getting so mad... It's been 9 years of threats, and that sometimes gets to you. They have nothing to do, no one likes them, they fight with everyone. We are descent people...

Trav,
hubby and I need to get away soon for a weekend, I'll see what we can do.

Razzle,
it is so strange. I take an antihistamine almost every night, before going to sleep, otherwise I can't get my heartrate down. But I don't feel it does anything to the herxing. I have been herxing for almost 2 years, and all of a sudden I can't controll it anymore.
What kind of homeopathic antihistamine are you taking? I'm sometimes taking DAOsin.
Maybe it is the LDN (Low Dose Naltrexone) that is provoking this? But I can't find anything on it...

Bluebyyou,
Nothing right now, it's all so overwhelming... I will start a 21 day meditation the 11th, just to get into meditating again, I have been neglecting it. I started painting again though, that feels good...
I'm having difficulties walking, but strangely enough I can ride a bike, and I bought myself one last week (with 21 gears, so I don't commit suicide on that bike). To go on very short bike rides. I hope it might help me detox too. Because I noticed I get so sore when I don't move, my feet swell up. I hope this can help, without exhausting me more.

Margaret,
I sometimes go to the lake, or the park. Or go out for diner with hubby during the weekend. These are small things, but they make it all more tolerable.
Tickledpink
Time goes so fast, I remember you waved at me the wrong way last year LOL
Yes, please pick me up to go with you!! you should meet hubby, I'm drilled to deal with people that drive me bonkers LOL (he has adhd)
I've been thinking about new opportunities too... Maybe I'll get a chance to rest for a few months if they go bankrupt. this is nuts, I can't even go on disability... I was starting to think I needed a change, maybe this will be good...
Yeah, who wouldn't want me LOL
You know, I often say to myself 'come on, onwards and upwards!!!!' it is you that thought me this!!
xx

Marie

Oh Marie, what a disaster! I disagree about the whining. It is really good for us. When I whine I make sure it's good! This morning I was supposed to go to Belmont Street in Brockton. I thought I knew where I was going and ended up on Tremont Street in Roxbury. God help me! I did get where I was going on time but I can't even get from A to B! My Lyme brain is getting to me!

Marie, if you need some help, tell me...

You need friends Now...

Hold on.

HUGS HUGS HUGS

In our neighborhood, my friend got an anonymous note asking them to maintain an over grown patch of grass area in their back yard (I believe on the other side of their fence, by the train tracks!). The note was from "we" of the neighborhood would appreciate you caring for your property better.

Well, you should have seen the facebook responses and laughs and comments people had. They all know how wonderful she and her family are. They recommended adding pink flamingos or changing garden decorations for the seasons or even not mowing their lawn at all for the rest of the year - and hanging a sign, if you don't like it, feel free to clean it yourself! (she had felt a little threatened).

So it gets better. She had a renovation project planned and ready to go to enhance her house to make it a better mother/daughter house as her mom lives with them.

SO NOW... forget that little patch of grass! There is a dumpster, giant mess of debris AND a portajohn in the driveway with the dumpster!

I recommend you and your neighbors have a little fun with these folks - maybe you will all run them outa town! :)