personality changes due to Lyme and coinfections

I'm beginning to notice that I'm quite manic. I have extreme highs and lows. I get angry for no reason. I get... just kind of crazy. I'm completely aware that what I'm feeling isn't normal for me. But I have zero control over it.

Does anyone else notice deep rooted personality changes since they've been sick? I'm worried I'll be stuck like this forever and I'll never be my old self again. I'm OK with this experience changing me. But I don't like all of the changes. I don't want my son growing up with me bouncing off the walls one day and making promises I can't keep because I know I'm going to come back down and not be able to move or talk.

I'm nervous about the some of the weirdness never going away. I can't finish one thought before 20 more come pouring in. I feel confused and powerless.

I'm doing and saying things that I'm later embarrassed about. I think about some of the things I've done and it's just not me! Ugh... what's the deal wise ones?

IHL, that's true, gotta get the darn bugs under control,
I don't know your story,
Do you have bartenolla? I know that can make you feel nuts-so.
Ever heard of bart rage?
It's very real, can make a sane person feel not sane.
Be glad you're in treatment,
=]chloe

I understand this all too well right now!

I have dealt with panic attacks/anxiety/random bouts of depression for half my life (I'm 28) and man, what I have been going through lately makes a lot of that in my past look like a walk in the park. My mom has remarked that I don't seem like myself, and I told her I don't even feel like myself at all these days. I go from okay to miserable so quickly, and have had horrible bouts of crying and being emotional, to just not wanting to deal with anything because this is doing things to my mind I was not prepared for.

I too feel like I'm not really in control of my emotions a lot right now, so I know how you feel. From what I've read on here, it seems like it does go away for a lot of people so I'm sure we will be okay. I too think it might be bart rearing it's ugly head. I've actually had a BAD weekend emotionally, so I am trying to get myself out of this rut. I know I will within a few days, it's just going to be rough until then. Hang in there, you will be yourself again!

My doc said the testing is really bad. I feel horrible for everyone around me. I don't know what to do about it. When I do feel like myself I'm horrified thinking of all the weird stuff I did.

The past few weeks I've tried to stay in my room and keep to myself. Very isolating

I'm sorry you are dealing with this and that is so hard for you. I too feel bad for others around me, especially my parents, who I still live with. I just try to apologize to them any time I can, and try to tell them that it's not really 'me' but whatever this thing is that I'm dealing with. Of course they don't totally believe I have it, so that doesn't always work, but it's all I can do for now until I get some more definite answers. It makes me feel worse to burden them with what I'm going through and I see how stressed out it's making them, so I have been on here more to try and not put so much on them.

I know it doesn't help much to hear this, but you are on the road to recovery, as frustrating and slow as it may be. Have you tried journaling your thoughts? Sometimes if I don't have anyone to vent to at the time, it helps me just to write things down and get them off my mind. And be honest; write down anything running through your head, no matter how silly or scary it might seem. It might not help much with the personality aspects and the mood swings, but it might at least help you feel a little calmer to get it all out. This is actually something I need to start doing again - I find it especially helpful if too many thoughts are keeping me up at night.

I get insanely irritable with die off or detox. It is so hard for me to be nice to people, everything just 'ticks' me off. Some things that I noticed which helped me were - IV glutathione (master antioxidant), vegetable juicing ( I do organic greens which are great for detox(celery, kale, romain lettuce, spinach, fennel), as well as cabbage (has lactobacillus) and it decreases some of my irritability. Good luck.