Anyone had this type of confussion

Yes, confusion, can't concentrate and short term memory is so bad.
If people talk a little too fast all i hear is blablabla... It's all blended together. I am frequently saying, I'm sorry, what? People have to repeat themselves often for me.
I feel like an idiot and frustrated with myself.
Comprehension of simple things and instruction i have to read and reread and sometime still don"t get it.
I used to love to read, i can't do much of that anymore.
I started a good book in September and only been able to pick it up a few times, then i just forget what i read.

I do have some good days but not many just yet! My Doc said my mind will improve in time! So I keep focused on that :)

It will get better!!!

Yes, confusion is a big issue for me to. I have trouble working out what people are talking about (even if it's in english, never mind greek), and I have difficulty making my thoughts into sentences without forgetting what I wanted to say, or forgetting individual words.

I know what you mean feeling like an idiot, I feel like I have no control over my own language skills. I used to be really talkative, overly so, but now it's just too much of an effort so I don't bother unless I have to.

Reading is equally frustrating, I had a massive panic attack a few days when I completely lost the ability to read a sentence. Writing or typing takes forever, but it's easier than speaking.

Anything other than routine tasks or simple ones just become a massive mess in my head and I get horribly panicky if I try to do them.

I also find that past feelings and experiences enter into it when I have extreme phases of detachment from reality. When I tried to explain this to my doctor (given it's difficult for me to explain anything much) he decided I was schizophrenic (no, I'm really NOT and I am 37 and have ONLY been experiencing this since I got the other symptoms, I just can't 'separate out' now from then and what's real from what's not at times!!)

I don't know what's causing it!

New dr. Says this can b bart. Old dr. Says Distorted reality is mold/ fungus.

Yep, these are ALL normal parts of this lame disease too, or the co-infections. See the "New to Lyme" thread and the detailed lists of symptoms.

My memory has always been terrible, now I remember in school knowing I was super smart but always feeling like it took me 2x as long as everyone else to understand a lot of concepts. I also do extremely detailed and good work (mental stuff) on the job but it takes me 2x as long as everyone else. Now I get why...

I used to forget what I wanted to say & use a trick to remember my thoughts: I would just go backwards from the most recent thought to the one before that to the one before that until I could remember the thing that escaped. Recently, I can't even remember my very thought in the very moment, let alone trace the "breadcrumbs" backwards....I can't remember how to dial my cell phone when I stare at it, or how to organize my priorities for the day. Feels so ADHD!

My dreams have always been vivid, like watching TV all night. I wake up tired because it's like I stayed up all night watching movies in my head. The only bonus is that I'm aware enough to stop a nightmare: I just tell myself it isn't real and that I want to change the ending. I can even make the dream happen again & just change the ending, all while I'm sleeping. Cool but exhausting! Silly sheep, I know what you mean about them sometimes being in real life or in your waking thoughts. Scary, right? But "normal".

You're not crazy, friends--just temporarily hosting some weird little nasty bugs. ;-)

Hang in there!
Maui

hoooboy. isn't it nuts feeling this way?

I reverse my thoughts as well! It's ilke retracing your steps to understand the relationship between thoughts in order to understand what you were trying to think about or accomplish. The musings of a madwoman.

I totally connect with the racing mind that goes nowhere. I find myself listening to someone only to repeat the first part of their sentence or statement over and over and over and not being able to understand it or stop or to pull myself out of it to hear the rest of what they are saying… it's crazy.

I haven't dreamt in years. Nothing. I know this is also a symptom of lyme or confections but not sure which one.

I'm also heartbroken because I did SO SO MUCH research and studying over the past year trying to bone up on lyme & co. and the other issues I'm grappling with—but I've forgotten a lot of it. It angers me…which is not good because of my tendency toward lyme rage.

I've lost my mind but hey—at least I'm in good company. ;)

-p

'I reverse my thoughts as well! It's like retracing your steps to understand the relationship between thoughts in order to understand what you were trying to think about or accomplish'. That hit the nail on the head, Pirouette!!

Definitely in good company Pirouette :) A collective set of marbles are rolling round, lost in the universe - should have put a 'return to' address on mine!!

When this first started happening to me it was suggested that I had PTSD, but I don't think that I do, just bugs, hey!!

I have the same dream pretty much every night. Different setting, different people in it, but the same theme every single time. Stupid it should still freak me out as it shouldn't really come as much of a surprise really, but I never remember when I am dreaming it that I have dreamed it before - durr!! I have to stop and catch myself when I 'flash back' when I am awake.

I tested negative for bartonella...but...I too mash my words together...cant speak a full sentence without losing my train of thought mid way thru..was always a great speller...will go back and spell check a message after its already sent because I will forget to check it before I hit send...yup...thats right...I forget! lol and I shake my head because I will have spelled a real easy word in a way that isn't even an option....talk about upsetting :) Or I will go back to read it and see I have two of the same word or I'm missing a word because I said it in my head but I didn't type it....Ive convinced myself to just laugh at me....otherwise...Id do an awful lot of crying.....by the way...I have Lyme and bebesia duncani....it plays alot with my words....it thinks its really funny...especially when it throws some random word in my sentence that doesn't even belong there! SILLY OL' LYME...YUP..42 yrs old and Lyme has me talking lil a toddler....:) chin up...I speak your language :) we got this!

Pirouette, I wonder if my body is naturally detoxifying. I am not working on any emotional stuff (thought I finished with that), and not taking any supplements to help detox emotionally. Could my body be doing that on my own when I have those flashbacks? Sssoooo coool, if yes.

Pirouette said...
dying2getwell

That is a little similar to the theories behind the emotional release when you detox—that your brain has "muscle memory" for your memories and as you are releasing toxins you relive events. I DEFINITELY experience it when I detox. I have the craziest thoughts and memories that I had not thought about for decades. Not all of it is bad but all of it is very deep random memories. Not sure why but the theory is interesting.

-p