I'm getting kinda frustrated with myself here. I have some important stuff to do, but I just can't get my brain together enough to do it. Stuff like ordering new supplements and updating herd health records. I keep telling myself "this is the day I'm gonna do it". I even made a list of what I have to do, so I can't say I forgot.
I'm just really wiped out most of the time. Or my brain is in a really funny place. I say to myself "ok, I'm going to do ____ now".......and an hour later I find myself doing my usual random internet stuff or watching Netflix. I used to be the type of person who'd get right on things as soon as I knew about
them, and go above and beyond what was required of me. If I was told an 8 page paper would be due in April, I'd have a 20 page paper done in March.
I just want to do a little comparison shopping, to make sure I'm getting the best supplements for the least money. So its not just a simple matter of putting things in my cart and checking out.
Its like I've got this strange combination of ADHD, autism and depression. Its all of those things, and none....all at the same time.
Normally, going for a walk or a change of scenery would help.......but not when its 5 degrees outside and there's almost 4ft of snow on the ground. And no way is my brain on straight enough to drive, so its not like I could brave the snow/ice covered driveway to go somewhere.
I can't even muster the motivation to put away my laundry.
I know part of it is the incredible fatigue that's back with a vengeance. I basically want to go back to sleep from the moment I get up.
At least we're due for a 'heat wave' tomorrow.....yay 31 degrees!
