Is it just me? Or do you do this, too?

The past several weeks, I've had some pretty good days. - maybe about two per week. (where I feel more than 50% better)

I started pulsing Tindamax twice daily two days per week. My LLND said pick any two days each week...and can be different days each week.

After doing my third round, I decided to do my fourth round back to back. So, I basically did my third Tinidazole round Friday Saturday, and then decided to do my fourth Sunday, Monday (today).

So, yesterday I was okay (day three of tini) - but woke up early this morning with awful shivers/chills, and anxiety. Had to get up to take my husband to the lab with the Igenex kit. Came home and slept for an hour. Woke up crying. - shivers/chills, shoulder blade sore (hasn't been sore like this for a while), head pressure...tailbone pain ramped up (worst it's been for weeks).

So, instead of thinking I'm herxing...my thoughts go to - uh oh - I'm slipping, my symptoms are getting worse,.....then I think...maybe I need to go back on the biaxin...what if it was working...and what if.....?

Then, the thoughts enter my head - what if it's not even Lyme...maybe it's Lupus...the same old stuff.

Is it just me? How do I accept that the herxes ARE herxes? What's wrong with me? Does anyone else have this problem? Questioning it?
Even on the better days, I say stupid things to my husband...like..."Am I really getting better...or am I just getting used to the pain and discomfort?"

Okay - I may as well ask: It's a herx, right? (don't yell at me, please)

Yes. I do this for sure. I've been getting better at it but when I feel the worst I question everything. It sometimes caused me to make impulse decisions. When I start to feel better it's like seee told you you were over reacting. Hang in there you're not alone.

Thanks everyone!

I feel like I'm a veteran at this - seven months in...but I get reduced to a blubbering cry-baby every single time.

I'm feeling much better this evening...

I didn't realize Tinidazole packed a punch like that.

Hi Girlie-

You are not alone :) I am still very new to all of this but I can relate. I don't tend to question the physical symptoms, I seem to attribute every little niggle of pain or weirdness to lyme & co. But the mental/emotional aspect really scares me. When you think and feel like a completely different person and lose control of emotions and mental faculties, panic sets in -at least for me.

Glad you are feeling better!

Girlie-

I go back and forth like that every day almost. I thought after I was diagnosed all of those feelings would fade, but it almost intensified them. Treatment is rough! And who wants to put those kinds of drugs in their body without being absolutely sure you need it?!

I hear your frustration, and I second it. I say and feel all of the same things. I think we all do on some level at some point. Hopefully it's just a phase and you will feel more secure soon. Hang in there Girlie- I'm rooting for you!!!!

Oh heck! When I had to treat my reinfection, and the herxing hit - I panicked!! LOL! It took an two days to convince myself that it was *just* herxing and that I was going to make it through this too!!! LOL!! Then I had to keep going back into the bathroom to "have a talk with myself" and convince myself that I could get through this yet again.

Funny thing was that hubby was very careful to give me "extra" space while I was herxing - as in he would leave the house when he could!! LOL! He spent a lot of time out in the shop! Poor guy!!