is there a hope from my case or I should just go and die ????

I am fed up just fed up and frustrated...everywhere I read disastrous story and there is no hope to get better. please please I just need some encouragement from people who got better in spite of difficulties like mine ( will explain later)

I am not looking for 100% health..I am fine with just being able to function and live normal life, go out when I want to, meet friends, participate in my toddler actvities, so on..EVEN WITH MINOR ISSUES.

I don't want to be bed ridden just for the sake of my toddler, she hasn't even started school yet..how can i raise her if I can't function ????

I have mild symptoms now, but it is enough to make my anxiety, quality of life aweful..the fear from future is killing me..I always say that what will happen to me..? I feel this way with minor symptoms, so how will I be able to deal with big setbacks..??

I have mthfr, candida, CMV, past EBV, lyme and bartonella (not for sure yet cause llmd just treated me with 6 weeks of doxy and ceftin then said that lyme and bart may not be my issue ( another story for another thread)). (I am also VERY THIN so I am so SCARED to death to follow candida diet and loose more weight..I can't tolerate it ( I also read it doesn't always work))

Also, my toddler is showing symptoms, and I can't get my hand on my health so I don't know how or where to turn for her, especially with a husband who keeps on telling me ( it is normal behavior), and doesn't support me if I want to do some steps to help her because he thinks I am crazy with my imagination.

we are financially tight, yet not to the degree of being eligible for any financila assistance ( we are also not us citizen)

i have appoint with ND next week who specializes with mthfr and I am hoping I can start to address some issues with him and go from there..I want to address mthfr and candida first and see how I feel..does that sound rreasonable plan...he said that once I get these under control, it will be easier for my immune system to be stronger and put other stuff under control??

will I be able to live close to normal again, will my toddler get worse in a year from now ( I can't get her in with anyone sooner and I can't travel to see llmd right now..)

please does it get better with my situation with so much issues going on..did u happen to have all these burdens and survive ??

I am 32 and I want another child ? how on earth I will be able to hold one in such a bad health ? what if it takes forever for me to get better then I am too old..please I need some words before I kill myself

I want to dieeeee nowwwww ..I feel there is no hopeee..please helpppp

Post Edited (abenewhere1) : 4/2/2015 1:14:25 PM (GMT-6)

Terribly sorry to hear of your situation. All I can say is know you are not alone, and try to be patient--not everyone gets better but most people do over time.

I was just diagnosed before Christmas but haven't been able to start treatment due to high ammonia levels. With a LOT of diet and detox work (I have MTHFR too), I just got the green light yesterday and started my antibiotics today. I also have two young children which make the days more difficult but also give a reason to fight on. Prayers and good luck to you.

p.s. I don't really know what works and what doesn't, but my LLMD really emphasized B12 and methylfolate to help my MTHFR. I take a 5,000 mcg methylcobalamin lozenge every day and 2 1,000 mcg methylfolate pills with meals. I did notice after starting methylfolate that my depression got way better.

"we are financially tight, yet not to the degree of being eligible for any financila assistance ( we are also not us citizen)
i have appoint with ND next week who specializes with mthfr and I am hoping I can start to address some issues with him and go from there..I want to address mthfr and candida first and see how I feel..does that sound rreasonable plan...he said that once I get these under control, it will be easier for my immune system to be stronger and put other stuff under control??"

That sounds great! You should be hopeful about the appointment with this ND. It will be easier for your immune system once you have the other stuff under control!

I don't really have the same amount of experience as some of the other members, both when it comes to treatments as well as seeing success from those treatments. I am very young, in terms of trying to heal.

That said, all I can say is that.. I understand where you are coming from. I'm dealing with a lot of similar issues right now, from the financial to the familial, and it's hell, and, in a way, the fact of not knowing what the outcomes of all these problems will be, that's even worse than what's right in front of my eyes.

Is there hope for you, your kid? Can you have decent lives, past this? I want to say yes, but I don't know. Maybe. There is hope, even if it doesn't seem like it. I can say those two things with a bit of confidence.

Just gotta try, and pray you make it to the other side.

If I got you down, more than you already are anyway, I am sorry. I don't mean to. I just gotta be real with ya.

Nothing is certain, not entirely.. except death and paying taxes, as my grandmother always says. Lol.

Anyway, good luck.

There's always hope of healing!!!
I was infected for 40 years before being diagnosed, and then I was an
"abx failure" - I had a full year of abx and only got worse. To top it off, the LLMD that I was seeing at the time told me I had every tick-borne infections out there - I thought I was completely doomed.

That's when I sought out Alternative medicine, and at first it was just because I couldn't live the way I was. I was nearly bed ridden, completely house bound. I ended up using a Master Traditional Chinese Medicine/Master Western Herbalist/Acupuncture Practitioner, but you can heal by using almost any practitioner that is open to new ideas!

This is not going to be easy, but it can be done.

You can still do the Candida diet, just be sure to include lots of avocados, nuts and nut butters and high fat foods that are allowed on the diet. Your Naturopath should be able to help you with that. If not, let us know and we can give you a few suggestions.

I have now healed from a 40+ yr Lyme, Bartonella, Babesia, Rocky Mountain Spotted Fever, Anaplasma, Ehrlichia and other tick-borne infections. I was under a ton of stress for far too long right after I healed, still had a wonderful year, then my adrenals and thyroid were seriously compromised, I got bit by another tick and was reinfected with Lyme disease last year. I am now 63 days past the time that I stopped treatments - and I'm working in the garden, using the weed eater for 2 hours at a time, and loving life!!!

Never, never give up hope of a better life - and you don't have to be a US citizen to heal here!! We are here to help you as much as we can!!