Tabular14 said...
Stop thinking about it. Pretend all your symptoms are something else. Make a joke out of it. Continue to take healthy steps towards recovery, but learn to enjoy just going through the motions and letting go of the outcome. Practice zen for the sake of zen.
Keep your spirit tied to something else. Don't identify with the disease. **** Lyme disease. **** all these infections. Be angry: it's your right. You're a human being with a life, not an illness.
Make sure to fill every day with more love and humor than anger.
Instead of explaining IgG antibodies to the few friends you have left, talk about good things in life. Or funny things. Or weird things. Just don't get caught in a negative loop talking about your struggles. No one can even come close to understanding what it's like. Your silence on the matter says more about your strength and the depth of your struggles than a thousand words.
Wait, we're supposed to recover doing that? That's the way I lived my live for the last 30 years, except for this recent relapse. I had no proof until last year I had any kind of tick disease. I believed all the Drs. (Lose 40 lbs you'll be fine....there's nothing wrong with you, it's all in your head, you're fine. You have Fibromyalgia which isn't really a disease, get some sleep, exercise, you'll be fine). So I made every attempt to live my live as if I was fine and darn near killed myself doing it.
I only have 2 people in my life. My grown daughter and a male friend that has ended up helping me at home every day. My daughter is infected too, but had been convinced she has Fibro by her Drs. We talk to each other for the same kind of support you and I get here. My friend has to know so he knows what he needs to do to help me.
I understand what you're saying, but not everyone lives like you described. I've been around too many people that did, and I don't want to elicit the yawn factor out of anyone if I can help it.